YOD IN THE SKY! HEADS UP: Karmic Breakthroughs and The Soulmate’s Lesson

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Juno in Leo sextile the North Node – both inconjunct the Apex (Moon in Pisces), conjunct Chiron. Juno is also loosely conjunct Jupiter. 5:14 am – 3:25 pm, GMT + 8, 30th November 2014.

What this means is that Soulmate energies will come into your life at this time to help you integrate a New Form of Balance in your life. You will learn the meaning and necessity of appropriate boundaries. The lessons may, for some, feel painful – and if so do not fear for Chiron is right behind you. You can and will learn from the vulnerability that this alignment rekindles within. This is a powerful time to heal the Inner Child and its need for validation.

Because the North Node is involved, this is a karmic alignment, and the opportunity to explore new spiritual terrain. The soulmate (Juno) can appear as a child, a spiritual teacher, a lover, someone you hold close to your heart and cherish.

Be Authentic and Be Love – in whatever form that is appropriate.

All is Well.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

OH, HOW STRONGLY WE HOLD ONTO OUR WOUNDS…

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It is curious how strongly we hold onto our deepest wounds. How they make us, shape us, break us – to the extent we allow them power over our lives. At once, we seek to transcend – emerging as the caterpillar from the chrysalis, the butterfly that makes it break from the cocoon. And in the same breath, a painful longing, a visceral yearning to go back into the past and mend the shattering of hopes, of love, of emotion. The irrational idea that somehow being better than you were Now, fixing whatever needed fixing in the present, could somehow magically alter the past.

Perhaps it does, in a parallel world .. but that is a different story. The past can never be altered, let’s get that straight – but its hold upon us, its impact upon our evolution, perception of life and path – going forwards – can be shifted.

Is it wrong to love, to attach to such powerful, life-shaping experiences? Is it wrong to want to turn back the clock and reinvent the Self?

No. It just means you’re human. It means you’re alive, and there is a part of you that greatly hopes, yearns and dreams for something different. It means there is a part of you that is unhealed – perhaps you understand it as a sense of ‘incompleteness’, or a dream that was unfulfilled.

That never goes away, it is never erased – but it can stop becoming the dominant theme of your life – with work, with time, and with healing. And perhaps, with the actions in the present, you can heal, and fulfill that which you desire the most. Albeit in a healthier way than the last time

To all those – like myself – now processing the deepest of wounds, the most tender of attachments now posing as shards of broken hopes – they are of course two sides of the same coin – the trick is to realize it and hold that paradox in place. Just as every beginning has the seed of the end and every end has the seed of a beginning. One of the many paradoxes that weaves its way through this Journey we call Life.

But what do you do with all that baggage? The refusal or seeming inability to ‘let it go’, even though one part of you is screaming out for it? The conundrum you face when release seems heartbreaking, but then, so too does continuance?

Fret not, for you still feel. You are still alive. Your dreams have not broken, and where there is a dream, there is a hope. A hope that exists even in the finest of dust that dances in the wind. But that Hope is within you. That Love, That Desire, That Yearning is a call only you can fill. Not the actions of another.

Allow yourselves to feel the unthinkable, turn towards the source of that pain and in it you will find a precious gift. A strength you never knew you had. Go into it, and let it teach you what it is that you truly seek through the experience you are re-living at this time. Chances are, it is a representation of something much larger – and one that you, yourself, in the Now can address, heal and acknowledge – as yourself.

For – as a friend of my said recently – all we really have, is Now

Blessings To All – and for all those in a similar situation of processing – I hope this message brings you some comfort, some guidance and some reassurance.

All is Well.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

Image Information: [Partial image] Eros et thanatos.jpg – By Laure joy (Own work) [CC-BY-SA-3.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0)], via Wikimedia Commons

THE RISE OF THE DARK PRIESTESS: Vesta conjuncts the Galactic Center and Black Moon Lilith shifts into Virgo

The Goddess Asteroid Vesta represents the Archetype of the Priestess. She calls us to find a path of faith, commitment, devotion, dedication – and equally of sacrifice – and – rejuvenation.

Conjunct the Galactic Center, Vesta calls us to learn from the Great/Grand Central Sun and the Black Hole at the Center of the Universe. We are called to balance the Polarities of Light and Dark – and to see the Healing and Wisdom within both.

She asks us to awaken to the Wisdom and Heritage of the Priestess.

Black Moon Lilith in Virgo reinforces the same energy – Here we are challenged to stand up and determine our own Sexuality, and Material Paths of Service.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

YOU DO NOT NEED TO TRANSCEND YOUR DARKNESS. OR ERASE IT. OR LIGHT IT UP SO IT RUNS AWAY….

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The past couple of days I’ve seen spiritual writings saturated with the idea of ‘transforming’ or ‘transcending’ Darkness, and turning it into Light. Whilst I understand the basic idea behind it, I also feel compelled to share my take on it. This understanding is simply a restatement of the Binary/Duality that so much of Spirituality claims to want to transcend. The moment you ascribe normative values such as ‘good’ or ‘bad’ to experiences, and then classify them as ‘light’ and ‘dark’ – and then make narratives about which is better, which needs to be transcended, and which needs to be let go of – you’re still falling into the same trap of Judgment. (If we’re perfectly honest with ourselves — the kind of dissolution and transcendence that spirituality aspires to would require a transcending of ALL categories)


Think about it. At the end of the day, Light and Dark are different aspects of the same Reality. The moment we declare that one is somehow worse, weaker, or in need of ‘transmutation’ into the other, is the moment we officially declare war on a key aspect of our own complexity – and origins…

Now I know the idea that we’re all recycled stardust and beings of Light is true … (and I like that idea too) – but it’s also worth remembering that EVERYTHING came from Darkness.

Yes, we are children of the Supernova, but we are also descendants of a Time in which Light simply did not exist. We emerged out of that Primordial Abyss.

Those of us willing to experience ‘Darkness’ without the categories and narratives of ‘evil’ or ‘dense’ or ‘in need of transmutation’ – eventually come to the understanding that there was in fact, a Sacred, Holy Energy present in Our Collective Primordial Beginning. An energy that accompanies us through our lives, and which we return to in order to experience our most powerful moments of transformation.

Astrologers understand the pull of this energy, and the immense wisdom and cycles of learning it imparts – as expressed our recognition of points such as the Galactic Center (at 27 Sagittarius) and the Super-Galactic Center (at 1 Libra) – these are massive Black Holes which represent the energy of Spiritual Teaching (among other things) … Often, those tight aspects to these points have a strong connection with ‘Source’ (in spiritual parlance).

Spiritualists in shamanic and more ancient traditions also understand the role of the Holy Darkness, expressing this connection through the imagery of the Dark Womb of the Earth. Those who engage with the energies of the Crone, Dark and/or Warrior aspect of the Goddess will know exactly what I’m talking about. That place in which you are first discovered, nurtured, and then able to arise from (and return to, when need be).

One theory for the evolution of Life on this planet points to its origins in the deep hydrothermal vents, beneath the ocean’s floor. A very ‘dark’ place … a more relatable analogy is the how a seed must first be buried before it begins to grow…. Thinking about it… even the womb in which the human fetus gestates is … a familiar, comforting – individualized – expression and engagement with Primordial Darkness.

So no matter which perspective you look at – astrophysics, astrology, evolutionary anthropology, biology,ancient spirituality – and so on — Darkness has had a key role to play in the ‘beginning’ of Life and Existence as we know it.

So.. I’d say it’s not something to avoid – or (possibly worse) to patronize with ideas of ‘transmutation’ and ‘healing’ so it can then become ‘Light’. It is its own vibration – and one that we do not need to (and cannot) ‘light-wash’, lest we erase our own primordial origins in the process.

Darkness and Light do not share the relationship of Opposites as commonly understood – Darkness is not even the ‘absence’ of light – but the photonic saturation of Light Absorbed (thank you one of my commentors for pointing that juicy fact out)

And they really don’t share relationship of soap (Light) and grease (Dark), something which enough soap can ultimately get rid of…. That is exactly the kind of binary/heuristic duality that sprung the trap of Judgment in the first place.

Enjoy the Rainbows, Enjoy the Light – and for those of you in search of Totality … Enjoy the Sacred Darkness and all the Shades of Grey that dance between the two – whilst you’re at it.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

Image: Illustration of a black hole and its surrounding disk.jpg – NASA, public domain

CHIRON RETROGRADE ENDS, STATIONS DIRECT!

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Astro-Update: At 5:55 pm today (23-11-14, GMT + 8), CHIRON WILL STATION DIRECT, ending its retrograde in Pisces. Yippee!!!!

Some of you will experience this as a re-triggering or re-cognition of old wounds coming to the surface to be experienced, released and transcended.

Remember that Chiron is the Wounded Healer. Whilst Chiron activations can be extraordinarily painful, the challenge (and gift) they hold arises through the experience of the Core Wound activated. This wounding keeps us in touch with our vulnerability and is a direct channel to our innermost depths.

It is important not to confuse Vulnerability with Victimhood. As old wounds rise to the surface for healing, remember that they are – at an esoteric level – wounds that you have chosen to experience so that you can then seek to transcend them, and learn from them.

Remember that you are the Co-Creator of your own Destiny. Remember that all that you experience is a part of your spiritual learning curve.

In Pisces, the ‘wounding’ is likely to be part of some aspect of your spiritual practice. Boundary-setting becomes an important recognition, as the need for a form, vessel, shape and material connection with your spiritual work.

As Chiron is involved in a yod with Pluto in Capricorn and Jupiter in Leo (trined Vesta in Sagittarius) — these lessons are likely to arrive ‘out of the blue’ (though some part of you knows they’ve been waiting to manifest in your consciousness for some time).

This is a profoundly karmic energy. Learn what you can. Be open to new understandings of Spiritual Pathways.

Remember that you are not a Victim by being Wounded…. or experiencing the Vulnerability that comes with it.

What you can be .. however… is a Teacher – if you are willing, able and honestly ready to look at the lessons and potential for healing those wounds carry.

Be kind to yourselves and others at this time – and as always.

Blessings to All.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

Information on the Sagittarius New Moon, providing context for this energy –http://wp.me/p4OUNS-cq

Image Information: The Healing Touch, by Tim holmes.jpg – By Tim Holmes (Own work) [CC-BY-SA-3.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0)], via Wikimedia Commons

NEW MOON IN SAGITTARIUS – OPPOSED THE SEVEN SISTERS (PLEIADES), ACTIVATION OF THE GREAT GODDESS FIRE TRINE, LILITH’S FINAL ROAR IN LEO – AND MUCH, MUCH MORE!

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Blessings to All. We’ve all felt the effects of this powerful New Moon in the sign of Sagittarius at 0 degrees. New Moons are portals for seeding intentions, which you can then see manifest or culminate during the corresponding (Sagittarius) Full Moon of that sign – in six months’ time. So this is a time to pay attention to the energetic intentions, commitments, affirmations that you are sending out into the Universe – at the Conscious and Sub-Conscious Level.

Sagittarius is linked with the energy of Growth, Expansion of Perception, Crossing Boundaries and Reaching for the Stars! (Yes it’s linked with Astrology as well). This also relates with matters of higher education, learning, teaching, foreign travel, or seeking structured tutelage in matters of Spirit. It is linked with the energy of the Guru, which is represented by deities such as Dakshinamoorthy (the ‘Teacher’ form of Lord Shiva). It can be any deity, from any pantheon, who represents the Pathway of Learning for you, irrespective of tradition. It can also refer to a physical guru, or teacher.

This New Moon amplifies the energies of pre-existing configurations in the sky – namely – the Great Goddess Fire Trine (Uranus Rx at 12 Aries trine Juno at 14 Leo trine Ceres at 10 Sagittarius) and the November-long Yod (Pluto at 11 Capricorn sextile Chiron Retrograde at 13 Pisces, both inconjunct Juno at 14 Leo) – I’ll provide links to these aspects for those who want more info.

In addition to all of this, this particular New Moon is opposed the Pleiades! Many of you who work with such energies would have had the chance to directly download information from the Seven Sisters Cluster and the energies associated with them. Both the New Moon and the Seven Sisters square Black Moon Lilith, creating a powerful T-Square – more on that below!

This is a particularly potent New Moon as the Sun and Moon conjunction are part of a large stellium involving Pallas Athena (at 14 Scorpio) , Mercury (at 21 Scorpio), Saturn (at 26 Scorpio), Venus (at 7 Sagittarius) and Ceres (at 10 Sagittarius)). Many different energetic influences are at play here, some of which provide a strong emphasis on Scorpio’s energies. So this is not your ‘typical’ Sagittarian energy. It’s one that keeps working upon the themes of the Underworld, the Sub-Conscious, issues of Power, Boundaries, Violation, Regeneration and Healing – through that process.

Both Chiron and Neptune in Pisces square Venus and Ceres in Sagittarius (at the time of writing this) – and so that tells me that many are finding significant challenges to the way they see their Spiritual Paths at this time. It’s a clear call to look at what ideas you have surrounding your path and whether you are attached to these ideas. It’s time to question those ideological attachments. Judgmentalism is on the cards – and many will be using the words of ‘Truth’ to justify the Ego.

Those with astrological placements near 9-13 Virgo or Gemini will either experience this as a Grand Mutable Cross or T-Square. Adaptation is the name of the game, and you need to leave your ego at the door to play it – you’ll be surprised at the rewards you uncover.

Juno, Jupiter (at 22 Leo) and Black Moon Lilith (at 29 Leo) are squared Pallas Athena, Mercury and Saturn in Scorpio. The tension is between the Fixed elements of Fire and Water. A challenge arises in terms of how we demonstrate and express our true, most vulnerable selves and how – at the same time – we maintain and uphold our energetic boundaries and integrity at the same time. The element of the Dark Feminine Rising is highlighted with Black Moon Lilith at 29 (Anaretic) Degrees Leo.

Those with astrological placements at or near 14 Taurus-1 Gemini and/or 14 Aquarius – 1 Pisces will experience this as a Grand Fixed Cross or a Fixed T-Square.

The Seven Sisters (Pleiades) Cluster is at 0 Gemini at this time. This feeds into the energies discussed. This is a perfect time to powerfully bridge and channel the teachings of Heaven and the Deep Earth. In truth, there is no Difference, except in Perception.

Pay attention to that suppressed feminine instinct, history or body or emotion at this time – This is her Final Roar before She enters Virgo in 5 days’ time. She will not return to Leo until January 2023.

Jupiter is inconjunct Mars (at 20 Capricorn) at this time – those with astrological placements at or near 20 Pisces will experience this as a powerful Yod or Finger of Fate pointing towards a key lesson or teaching in your sense of authenticity/vulnerability/inner child/sacral energy. The lesson is likely to come from a Teacher, who could also be your romantic partner – or even your child (as Leo is associated with all of this). The way you use your assertive energy is going to be scrutinized, and some fundamental way in which you conceptualize the idea of ‘achievement’ or ‘accomplishment’ is going to have to be transformed at this time.

Jupiter is also trined Vesta (at 24 Sagittarius) – again – the energy of the Priestess or Spiritual Facilitator comes in to shake up what you think you know about the Spiritual Path ūüėČ Stay open to the guidance that comes and question strong denials or over-identifications with any kind of Path at this time. (Even those who take the Title of Priestess or Spiritual Facilitator – make sure it’s coming from a place of Spirit, and not Egotism). Such checks are a natural and healthy part of your spiritual evolution, so don’t worry about it ‚̧

Uranus Retrograde is also inconjunct Pallas Athena. Those with astrological placements near 15 Virgo are going to experience this as a powerful Yod/Finger of Fate which directly relates to your ability to Connect from the ‘Higher’/Transcendental Mind. Awakenings are likely to occur in a powerful way, transforming the way you carry and embody your burgeoning Consciousness.

Pallas Athena in this potential yod speaks to the way we stand our ground and hold to our truths. But again – here lies the pitfall of judgment. Be sure that what or whom you stand for is aligned with Spirit, rather than the Ego. Priestesses and other Spiritual Facilitators are likely to feel this energy very powerfully as they will be asked to re-conceptualize their understanding and embodiment of The Path.

Finally – Goddessians will be pleased to note that Venus (at 7 Sagittarius) is now a part of the Great Goddess Fire Trine. This is a beautiful time to attract and manifest powerful teachings that will take you forward in your spiritual Journeys and connection with the Sacred Feminine. Be aware of the pitfall of the Ego-Identification that can equally result with Venus in this position.

To phrase it differently – What you think may not be true because it ‘feels’ pleasurable, or good, to think so. Venus enjoys her creature comforts and the values/mode of evaluation she stands for is one that will resist change unless you make the active choice to do so. Allow yourself to suspend your idea of what ‘must’ be Truth as you open yourself Up to the Divine.

Vanakam, Namaste and Blessings to All.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

Links –
Great Goddess Fire Trine – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-bb
November’s Yod – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-b2

THE PATH OF THE PRIESTESS: PEACE? WAR? HEALING? TRANSMUTATION? LOVE? ALCHEMY?

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As Priestesses – what is it that we do? Do we hold someone’s hand and listen to them pour their hearts out? Do we just ‘talk straight’, and tell someone what they really need to hear? Do we heal? Do we inspire? Do we defend? Do we terrify? Do we help out behind the scenes or jump straight into the heart of things?

Yes… ¬†Yes… and Yes ….

And a lot more besides …

Being a Priestess¬†does not require a religion, or even any understanding of faith (as paradoxical as that sounds). Some Priestesses use a Title, and some others do not even recognize the construct – doesn’t stop them from being one though ūüėČ And both approaches are just as valid.

And just to be clear – whilst I tend to address my posts to all genders, this one has a strong emphasis on the Feminine. The Priest’s Path of Service tends to be slightly different – but those¬†who have a balanced sense of Masculine/Feminine will be able to relate to this piece as well.

What I have seen across the board is this: Priestesses live day-to-day with eyes in this world and in plenty others simultaneously. They see the movement of Spirit, Divinity, Grace, Life through all that occurs and honor, amplify or simply recognize that movement through some form of Service. As a Priestess upholds, embodies and anchors that vibration of Living-in-Communion, she naturally becomes a beacon that others are drawn to Рa Gateway, if you will Рto Healing and Re-connection.

Sometimes it’s a pleasant process, and at other times, it can be extremely uncomfortable. Some Priestesses are gentler, others are harsher. Some see joy and life in the world, and others see the rot and are focused upon its healing. Sometimes both, and a lot more besides. There’s just no generalizing it.

You can find a Priestess in a hospital, in a church, in a pagan community, in a social care center, in parliament, in a corporation, in a mirror – anywhere where there is a Woman able to see this Movement/Vibration and Align herself with it.

But more than any of that –¬†there’s the Devotion, or Dedication to a particular Cause, Vibration or Idea. In ancient times, many of us chose death over the forsaking of our beliefs; We chose our cause of devotion over much-desired love and comfort; We chose to walk the route that no one else dared or wanted to even approach (as so many awakening priestesses¬†are beginning to remember).

Some of us continue to make those same choices. And in some parts of the world, it really is a matter of life-and-death. For most of us, the repercussions are nowhere near as dire. But that does not make our choices any less significant.

We see it when we are called to speak our Truth to friends, family, colleagues, lovers, and so on. We see it in our thoughts, emotions, ideas and very substance, or essence of Being.

A constantly running red thread … that keeps pulsing, as real as your heartbeat. The sound of an invisible drum, a rhythm your Soul keeps dancing to. Each footstep, each time you follow that thread – a Choice is Made.

At times these choices seems like Trials РTrials of Fire and Spirit that just keep you going forward, come what may. Some with more intensity, others less so (and both is fine).

The choices that come in our lives, which call us to always, always look at things from a Transcendent Perspective. We’re always called to take the ‘higher/deeper’ road – and nothing exists in half-measures.

There is this constant intensity – be if of joy, trials, sorrow, anger – or any other emotional state (sometimes all) as Priestesses begin to remember and embody their Sacred Archetypes.

It’s not all grim, but it’s not all cupcakes and roses either. There is a beauty to this path, but also a great striving that accompanies it – especially in the earlier phases of awakening.

In my case, I was recognized as a Priestess (without the title ever being used) by a spiritually attuned mother and a father who recognized me as his teacher (and I him) from infancy. Even so, Living the Path, has not been a walk in the park (and that too, is a part of my Service).

In my earlier years, given my name (Bhairavi – Destroyer of Obstacles, The Most Terrifying Aspect of Maha-Kali) and cultural background (where Goddesses are shown sticking tridents into and impaling ‘demons’) – the biggest lesson I had to learn was in the Mode, or Type of Service I was called to give. The ‘battle metaphor’ had to dissolve (which took some work, and the help of friends), till I was better able to see the full spectrum of things.

So here’s some of what I’ve learnt:

(1) Leaping into battle doesn’t always work. But neither does dropping all your defenses and walking in as the pacifist.

(2) Mediation, Healing and Transmutation isn’t always the best course of action (at least, not at first). Sometimes Defending, Protecting and Making a Boundary is.

(3) Holding your ground is right sometimes, but so is complete Surrender.

(4) Not backing down is just as valid as turning your back and walking away

(5) Not all crises are yours to solve, not all problems you encounter are a part of the work that you came to do.

(Sometimes we feel indispensable, and that too is a part of the ego learning that this Priestessing business is not something you can put in a box ūüėÄ )

(6) There is no ‘one formula’ or ‘mode’ that can be used for every situation – nothing is generalizable

(7) The moment you think you ‘know’ something, the Universe shows up with a whole new thing for you to learn. It’s endless, and that’s a beautiful thing in itself.

I’d like to think that I integrate a wider repertoire of these responses in the current way I walk my path, and that I will continue to learn more as time progresses.¬†My trident (claws/ferocity) is there in the background should I ever truly require it, but a more peaceful approach tends to solve most issues.

But one thing I have learnt through all of this is the following:

That there is no ‘default’ response for what a Priestess does, when she is Called to Serve. We are all different, and our Paths and Purposes are different – as are the wide range of situations we encounter in our individual lives.

So there is no need to generalize, to compare one’s path with another, or to try and create a ‘standard formula for Priestessing’.

Here’s what I wrote to a friend earlier today, on the same subject – and with these words I leave you to your thoughts:

At times we will be called into battle to seek the peace through mediation. And at other times, we will be called to fortify the defenses against assault. Sometimes it’s making sure the crops grow and people are safe. It’s very very relative.

¬†At times we burn, at times we heal, at times we stand our ground, or build bridges – and at times, we make sure we turn and never look back. All are necessary, all are equal, and all are …. specific to the circumstance.
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Blessings to All,
Image Information: Me at Thanjavur Periya Kovil, 2010. (c) Bairavee Balasubramaniam