Blessings to All. The Pisces Full Moon brings us the culmination of intentions set during two powerful Pisces New Moons: February 18, 2015 with the Aquarius-Pisces-Hybrid Supermoon) and March 19, 2015 (Eclipse, Supermoon, Equinox at 29 Pisces). Both of these New Moons carried with them powerful opportunities to break out of karmic cycles from lifetimes past and to discover new ways of deepening one’s connection with Spirit.

By nature, Piscean energy brings us to other realms or states of being. This is the watery realm in which all forms, definitions, boundaries and labels cease to exist. It represents, in its purest form, the energy of Unconditional Love and Absolute Compassion, associated with more mystical and transcendental spiritual experiences.

Piscean energy has the capacity to unconditionally sacrifice itself for the betterment of another, without expectation of reward, recognition, status – or even of reciprocation. It can give, and give, and give, drawing from the Infinite, without paucity – and without seeking anything in turn. We venerate those who absolutely operate at this level of spiritual vibration and unconditional love as saints, Messiahs, Ascended Beings and so on.

I associate Pisces energy with Compassionate Masculine figures such as Lord Shiva from the Hindu tradition and Lord Christ from the Christian tradition (unsurprising as my Mars and Jupiter are both in Pisces). In both instances, the act of physical sacrifice or unconditional surrender is woven into the mythology, or narratives that establish key aspects of their Divinity. Depending on your own inclinations and natal chart, you might identify the same energy in other spiritual figures or archetypes.

Whilst the compassionate waters of Pisces encourage the flow beautiful, tender and vulnerable expressions of love, spirituality, altruism and unconditional giving, they open the self to possibilities of projection, (self) deception, escapism and so on. Pisces is equally the energy of Maya, or Illusion, the veil that separates some idea of transcendental Reality from the immediate present. It may seem beautiful, but may be deceptively so.

The blurring of facts, boundaries, ideas and identities that Pisces is famous for can entrap a spiritual seeker into something that looks and feels great, but may be wholly unaligned with their spiritual needs and actual level of awareness or realization. Ever met someone claiming to be an Ascended Being, only to see their ego blow up all over the place when you don’t fall at their feet in awe and worship? Well, then you know what I mean.

At times these illusions are harmless, but at other times, they can cause harm – to one’s self or to others who believe a person’s claim to spiritual gifts, expertise or alleged sainthood.

At the everyday level, Piscean energy can be used to project self-serving acts as the epitome of martyrdom and selflessness. You see this a lot with care-taking behavior that becomes resentful when unacknowledged, “Look at how much I do and sacrifice for you and see how little you appreciate me?” Those with codependent traits are likely to see this line of questioning (or the energy behind it) emphasized during this Full Moon.

A further danger of Pisces lies in its ability to escape. When in balanced form, spiritualists can work with Piscean energy to experience otherworldly realms and states of being, beyond the veil of Maya as it were. When unbalanced, Pisces seeks to escape through a variety of mechanisms – projection, dissolving one’s identity in another person, obsession, substance abuse – and in extreme cases, even suicide. Those who seek ‘ways out’ may be unable to face the vulnerability that Piscean energy almost inevitably asks us to fully experience and immerse ourselves in completely.

This is not something to be ashamed of – it just means that you might need to find support groups, friends, or organizations that can help you through a rough time. Don’t be afraid to reach out to people or institutions that you think might help, but don’t take it personally if they’re not available for you. It’s an intense energetic time for everyone, and we’ve all got our karmic baggage to sort out. Some of you might find solace in a mental health retreat or simply a support group of some kind (AA, Al-Anon, etc.).

A further dimension of Piscean energy deals with the karmic heritage of the individual soul. Pisces Full Moons are ones which quite literally have the capacity to dissolve karmic contracts, or to clear the karmic slate as it were. This is especially true of this Full Moon as its seeds were also set during the March 2015 New Moon at 29 Pisces  – the Anaretic or Terminal degree of the Sign, and the Zodiac as a whole. We quite literally set the seeds to move past a whole cycle of energetic lessons, a turn in the wheel as it were – and are now witnessing that process of release unfolding.

Now is a time of great energetic release in which a person can realize just what attachments they may be holding onto out of fear, or other egoic needs. It can be a scary process, especially for those at the verge of a critical breakthrough/breakdown and can involve the experience of profound vulnerability, along with the humility of absolute surrender to the Divine. 

Now is a moment that calls for absolute surrender – not to the will of another being – but to whatever it is that you have Faith in. It is an energy that asks you to trust in whatever outcome that emerges without seeking to control or contain it in any form. As a general rule, Pisces can create Miracles, that is, it can manifest just about anything it needs to when powered by Faith, rather than expectation.

In a direct, everyday sense, try to avoid major conflicts and simply process what you need to in solitude. You might find tears as a potent form of release or even simply feel the need to sleep longer. Grounding out under a tree or in a natural setting can be calming at this time. If you need support, go to organizations or people who can help hold a space for you (ritually or even in a practical sense, or both) as you process. Avoid excesses of anything, especially if you’re trying to distract yourself from deeper realizations. As the Pisces Full Moon opposes the Sun in Virgo, chances are that you will be called to draw a line, or find a certain boundary that actually (somewhat paradoxically) lets you open up to the Divine in a more direct way than before. Watch the experiences that come your way and act accordingly – Pisces is notorious for blurring the waters, so whatever comes up may appear in a distorted form.

Try not to jump to conclusions and allow your intuition to guide you – it’s the time to trust it.

And -as a general rule – this Full Moon is bound to be a fairly tender time for most people – that includes YOU. Remember to practice compassion, and be gentle with yourselves and other people. Allow people to be what they are, and you just be what you are. Avoid control dramas and conflicts unless you feel that standing your ground is absolutely what you need to do.

For those of you feeling up to it, try to do something which inspires you, that makes you re-member that you are a Channel of Divine Will – be it through art, dance, or whatever activity that makes you feel ‘in tune’. Others may consider helping out at a soup kitchen, homeless shelter, or in other contexts where the simple act of giving is done without expectation, question or negotiation. If you can, hold space for someone who is charting their spiritual journey through the rougher tides of Piscean energy – but not if you’re trying to avoid the same work/journey within yourself. Remember that the the idea is to help out another, and not to take on their baggage!  It’s also a fantastic time for pilgrimages to sacred sites and for spiritual ceremonies conducted by grounded, experienced facilitator.

For those looking for a more specific guide to coping with this Pisces Supermoon, I refer you to a 12-house coping strategy (by the Ascendant/Rising Sign) I wrote for the same alignment last year:

Other Alignments:

The New Moon of February 2015 was conjunct Nessus (0 Pisces), commonly referred to as the ‘abuser’s asteroid’. We are all going to be, at some level, processing deep karmic experiences and memories which may have _appeared to_ disconnect us with Spirit. We are never truly disconnected, however, experiences that are particularly traumatic can create the illusion of disconnection. Healing the Nessus wound requires us to recognize the illusion for what it is and to acknowledge, once more, our indivisibility with/from Spirit. We are always surrounded by with the Love of Divine, even when we believe all has been forsaken or lost. Here is where the test of Faith comes, and with it, the capacity to manifest Miracles with Piscean energy.

For most people, Nessus triggers the sensation of having one’s personal, intimate, psychic and/or sexual boundaries violated. These wounds may not have been sustained in this lifetime, or even acted out by people you’ve met this time around, but can easily refer to events that transpired many, many, SuperMoons past. Do not feel the need to locate what you feel at a physical level and accept (if you can) the idea that your Soul has experienced a lot more than what your Conscious Self is aware of. This can avoid a lot of unnecessary pain, stigma and fear in interpersonal relationships.

Neptune Retrograde (8 Pisces) will be close to the Moon, whilst Jupiter (3 Virgo) will be close to the Sun. Neptune’s influence will only intensify the experience of the Piscean Moon (as Neptune rules Pisces), whereas Jupiter will amplify the Sun’s focus in Virgo – an energy that seeks to delineate, find form, structure and function of material vessels designed for a path of Earthly Service. There’s going to be a somewhat of a tug-of-war going on between the two – with Neptune as the Teacher of Formlessness, and Jupiter as the Guru that shows you the road ahead.

Chances are that we’re all going to be called to find a more grounded, earthly, practical way in which we can manifest, or carry forward the lessons that we experience at the more emotional and intuitive level during this Full Moon. The tension between Virgo and Pisces will be highlighted – as we discover the balance between setting a boundary and opening the self to the Divine. Both are equally important in the Road Ahead, especially with Jupiter’s year-long lessons in Virgo and the North Node’s upcoming shift into Virgo in October 2015.

To quote a conversation I was a part of last night: it is the archetype of the Guru vis-a-vis the Saint. One Knows, and another Experiences. Both are equally valid.

Also bear in mind that the Mercury, Black Moon Lilith, Super-Galactic-Center and North Node conjunction in Libra sextiles Saturn in Scorpio – and that Venus Retrograde prepares to meet Mars in Leo within 2 days’ time. There’s a tremendous focus upon our relationships, the ways in which we relate with others and the parts of ourselves which we do not acknowledge or simply tend to disown (the Shadow Self). The decisions that we make now will, due to Saturn’s & the Super Galactic Center’s influence, form a significant part of the energetic blueprint we carry for a long time henceforth.

In short, it’s a quite a significant Full Moon and one that I hope will bring us all to a greater awareness of just what it means to Be and Love ourselves and others as The-Divine-in-Human-Form.

Much Love,

Bairavee Balasubramaniam

The Sky Priestess

Image: ‘Nessus’, kindly gifted by Theresa Luttenegger. You can find more of her work at

Coping with the Supermoon in Pisces (9:38 am 9 Sep, GMT + 8) at 16 Pis ’19: A 12-House Guide [COMPLETE]

Something I wrote for the Pisces Supermoon in 2014. Relevant as a 12-house coping strategy for the upcoming Pisces Supermoon on August 29, 2015. I’m just about to post my article on that as well. Stay tuned!


Dr. Bairavee Balasubramaniam PhD

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Blessings all,

As I explained before ( ), we’re already feeling the dissolving, formless, culminating energies of the Pisces SuperMoon, coming on the 9th of September (at 9:38 am, GMT + 8). This is a ‘rough guide’ to coping with the energies. Each chart is unique, so take only what resonates. Go to get a free natal chart to see which house 16 Pisces falls into for you before proceeding.

Read the house that applies to you (in fact read all 12 if you like) – and also the sign that occupies your 12th house (associated with Pisces). So, if you have your 10th house in Pisces and your 12th house in Taurus, then read the entries for the 10th house and the 2nd house (as Taurus is linked with the second house). You can also read the 4th house (representing the Moon), or even whatever sign your…

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turns of time.

turns of time

many paths, many truths
each claiming to be the most ideal,
the ultimate path to the divine..
the ultimate path to humanity..
the most representative ….
of our time. Now.

And yet there is a need to step aside …
For the wheels of time teach a powerful lesson:


A different name, a different game,
time and time again
the same kind of claim
passionately, provocatively, profoundly,
the One that will save …
time and time again ….

a cycle is born, peaks, then ends …
a Zeitgeist emerges as part of each new age
one we collectively seek to emulate
if it hurts, one we hate
in support, in resistance,
here and there a different kind of truth,
paled in the shadow of the one hymn all are called to sing
of the greatest path Now.

that we all need to follow lest we miss the Mothership
the magic Ascension trip
there is a part of me that wonders
if our love for the collective
waking up together,
the desire to be One…
i wonder if it forgets time.
for in the next age, another Song,
then another …

we tell ourselves they build on each other.
as we dance in the trance of the music of utopia.
the cycle repeats with a different song each time
but the dancers keep dancing
but what happens if we cease to follow?
if we refuse to dance
and step away
like the eagle rising over the rain clouds

what we if simply say
hey …

we’re at it again.

there’s no magic ideal,
utopian realization,
no special time,
that hasn’t meant more than every other second in the Universe?

what if we stopped trying to push,
into being an utopia of a faraway dream,
the New Age equivalent of a
spiritual rat race?
what we if simply say

hey …
we’re at it again.

~ bairavee balasubramaniam ~

Birthing a New Reality: The Penultimate Push – THE SUN-IN-LEO SQUARES SATURN-IN-SCORPIO FOR THE LAST TIME UNTIL 2042 (August 21, 2015)


This upcoming Sun-Saturn square is the penultimate test, or intense energetic peak that we will experience with Saturn-in-Scorpio, before it finishes its transit and then enters Sagittarius. The next time we see a Leo Sun squaring Saturn in Scorpio will be at 0 degrees of both signs, in July 2042. Truly, we’re close to turning the last page before the end of our current chapter of conscious(ness) (r)evolution.

The Sun/Saturn square goes exact at 28 Leo/Scorpio ’35 on the 21st of August at 23:40 (UTC), so in about one-and-a-half days from now.

The Sun represents the focus of one’s consciousness and/or vital energies. In Leo, it concerns itself with matters of the heart, creativity, sensuality, children and our ability to express our passions, vulnerabilities and joys. In short, Leo’s focus is on that which makes us come alive – be it through the celebration of life, or the awakening that pain can bring to a consciousness that has numbed itself to sensation (or both)! Very often these awakenings directly involve, awaken and/or trigger the parts of ourselves which we call our Inner Child. Chakra-wise, I associate it with the Heart (4th / Anahata) and Sacral (2nd / Swadishthana) energy.

Saturn is the karmic taskmaster whose lessons of maturity lead us to discover the strength, discipline and focus we have within to achieve our goals and attain a certain level of mastery. It is the energy of Absolute Authority, which I also link with the Earth-Crone (Grandmother Archetype). Saturn’s tests are ones that help us mature and come through construction, restriction and often manifest through interactions with established authorities/upholders of the status quo. The energy of Saturn is also linked with institutions of power (which have power only because we see them as such), e.g. governments and banks. At a personal level, we experience Saturn through the form of the disciplining parent/grandparent.

It isn’t always a bad thing as wisdom that knows true maturity need not abuse its power, but rather act as a stable foundation for further generations which will ultimately outgrow that very structure. In some sense, the brilliance of Saturn comes through which one realizes it is really not about ‘reaching the top’, but getting there and holding the gates (of Aquarius, consciousness, etc.) open for others to walk through.

Achieving that level of maturity, where status and authority are less about the ego-comforts of being recognized, but rather, the task of holding a momentary structure in place that future generations at first grow upon, then eventually replace – is what Saturn seeks to teach us, now in the sign of Scorpio.

Saturn in Scorpio is quite literally in its final days, with its shift into Sagittarius on September 18, 2015 at 2:46 am (UTC). Saturn began its transit in Scorpio in 2012 and will not return to this sign until 2041.

At 28 Scorpio, Saturn’s pressure and tests feel more and more intense by the minute. It’s pushing our revolve, testing our staying-power, our commitment, our focus upon a long-term plan or decision – and to stick with it. For most, it will involve the energetic allocation of resources, boundaries of sexuality and intimacy, the appropriate use of power, clearing ancestral karmic lineages and matters generally concerned with the realms of the sub-conscious and/or the Shamanic understanding of The Underworld.

I associate Scorpio’s energies with the Sacral and Base (1st, Mooladhara) Chakra. Saturn’s energies involve the Will of the Solar Plexus (3rd, Manipura) Chakra, ideally working in alignment with the Vision of the Third Eye (6th, Ajna) and the Detachment of the Crown (7th, Sahasrara).

Much is being wrapped up now, energetically, and the Sun-Saturn square is one of the final tests that this Saturn-in-Scorpio energy will ask us to face. We’re likely to feel far greater intensity as the shift actually happens (mid-Sept), but this will be one of its final energetic peaks.

So – what might this square feel like? What can one do about it?

With the Sun squared Saturn coming up, I see this as the potential clash between the Child and Authority/Parent/Grandparent Archetype. There is a need to express the Joy of the Self and its Vulnerability, alongside a need to channel that energy in a disciplined form that will honor your energetic boundaries and allow you to set the foundation for something long-lasting. I suspect, for many, this placement will seal the deal as it were on the decision to marry, break away from marriage or other long-term romantic/sexual commitments – perhaps even those involving having/ adopting / working with children or creative endeavours.

On the one hand – You might just surprise yourself at how powerfully and passionately you commit to something, or someone. Leo and Scorpio both experience vulnerability in different ways, and both equally open different paths to healing and wholeness. The tender hug of a Child can soften a resentful Grandparent; the touch of a Lover and soothe wounded pride. Rather than seeing things as a ‘fight’ or a ‘battle of wills’, focus on what is shared – especially when dealing with significant partnerships.

And on the other hand – You might discover that your feelings, emotions, energy and vulnerability is truly-and-genuinely being taken for granted. What then? Bear in mind that Leo, the Lion breathes and Roars with Fire – Scorpio guides the Fire-Bird to its depths so that it may perish and be re-born… There is nothing lacking in your ability to set your boundaries, stare your invaders in the eye and ROAR! Let the scavengers flee as you stand in your presence, regal, confident, powerful and comfortable in your Being.

Which response you need (possibly both) depends on your situation – these are generalized suggestions.

Those with placements near 28 Aquarius and/or Taurus will experience this as a Fixed T-Square or Grand Fixed Cross. Remember to stay flexible whilst staying true to what you resonate with. Bear in mind that the central theme here is how you deal with Fixed Energy – Energy that wants to hold onto something, preserve something, maintain a structure for what it was.

Indeed – holding onto what feels true to you may indeed be an act of reclaiming your authenticity, but it can just as well be the ego’s way of defending itself – by being obstinate and reluctant to change, adapt or evolve. Only you can tell that difference for yourself in your actions and responses to this incredibly intense square.

By nature, squares are fairly tense alignments – and they can generally lead to a sense of pressure and stress. But bear in mind that it is that exact pressure that transforms a piece of coal into diamond – and in that same vein – it is that exact kind of stressful ‘push’ that accompanies the inception, conception and culmination of Birth.

Some of you will enjoy the feeling, and others will feel it as pain – both responses are equally valid and equally powerful.

So it boils down to one question:

What are you Birthing into Being at this time?

Blessings to All,

Bairavee Balasubramaniam
The Sky Priestess

Image: RCW 86.jpg – NASA/JPL-Caltech/UCLA via Wikimedia Commons, public domain image


Dr. Bairavee Balasubramaniam PhD


Astrology and astronomy – the study and interpretation of celestial bodies – have played key roles in development of myths, legends and stories in cultures across the globe. The Mayans, Egyptians, Indians, Chinese, First Nations Tribes and other ancient peoples developed their own ways of navigating and deriving meaning from the skies. We still see millions today seeking guidance through this craft, most popularly through Western and/or Vedic astrology.

Astrology still holds the incredible power to create a narrative of purpose, origin, belonging and to frame the individual’s role in familial, interpersonal, intra-personal and collective dynamics. These powerful narratives reflect – and in their own way – continually shape a culture’s definition and perception of itself at the meta-level.

The discipline of astrology itself has been undergoing revision, refinement and diversification. With the rise of more intuitive perspectives such as Evolutionary Astrology, Soul-Centered Astrology, Karmic Astrology and so on –…

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Happy Birthday Appa (Dad). He turns 64 today ❤

Dr. Bairavee Balasubramaniam PhD

Today, August 18, 2014, my father turns 63. Known as ‘ Thannambikai Balasubramaniam ‘, or ‘Thannambikkai Bala’ to the Malaysian-Tamil public, my father is known as the Pioneer of Tamil-Language Motivational Seminars in Malaysia. It was he who coined the well-known phrase ‘Thanmunaippu Payirtchi’ (Self-Confidence Seminar) in the Tamil language – a term that so many now use without a second thought.


He has literally spoken to hundreds of thousands of people in Malaysia and abroad, through live audiences, through TV, Radio and other platforms in over 25 countries and global cities across Europe, Asia and Africa. He has dedicated years of his life to the service and upliftment of the Malaysian-Tamil community and of preserving the cultural integrity and artistic heritage of the Tamil culture.


An entirely self-made man, my father rose from very humble beginnings. He was born in a rubber estate, his mother was a rubber tapper…

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I have been thinking about romantic ideals and how we apply them to real people. In my own relationship, I am at a point of discarding whatever I thought I idealized, because those mental constructs just don’t feel … real .. anymore.

We’ve become so accustomed to a language that talks about what we are entitled to on the basis of our spiritual growth – couched in the language of the law of attraction, most often. Put a vibration out there and you’ll get the same/complement/mirror of it. That became a call for ‘ You be a Goddess, and you’ll attract a God’ or vice versa.

I think that the vibration of the words we use and the way we use them needs to change. To ‘respect’, to ‘deserve’, ‘honor’, to be entitled to – in the past, especially with my background in legislative research – that seemed okay. Now it just seems like the terms of a contract for goods and services bartered. And indeed, relationships – especially the ones that transform you in the deepest ways possible – are forms of energy exchange.

Now I understand where that came from – it grew out of a growing awareness of how women (in particular) are socially conditioned to behave as though they are co-dependent. They’re taught they can’t live without man, or that they can’t be their best so that they keep their men, etc. etc. And if you’re in this place, then this rhetoric is probably going to be one of those tools that you use to help you move into a different space, with respect to how you relate with others.

But at some point, to me at least, it has become a crutch in my spiritual growth and evolution, and capacity to love.

So what’s the alternative?

First – and this is going to sound weird given how strongly I believe in the Goddess and write about Her most of the time in some way or another, but it’s what feels true for me now, so here goes –

I feel we need to get past this need to see ourselves in term of ideal-types – be it King, Queen, God, Goddess, Multi-dimensional Light Being, etc. Why not just stick with Person, or Being?

Those of you who follow my work, you’ve probably noticed that I never refer to people as Goddesses or Queens – Priestess, yes. But even that was a label that I ultimately ended up moving away from as part of my name.

It’s not because people don’t embody X, Y, Z energy, but because I’d rather see them (and myself) as .. well .. Substance, Energy, Vibration, Spirit call it what you like. I behave differently to someone who calls themselves a Queen or High Priestess, I behaved differently when I had the title of Priestess as part of my name. Why?

Because Labels have power. And I see them, more and more, as tools which ultimately become crutches. The kinds that hold us down and prevent us from seeing ourselves as – Whatever the Heck We Are – .

And just as I apply that to myself more and more now – it’s also entering my relationships. Let’s try the following thought experiment – see how you respond to it (and it’s all cool, valid, fine whichever way you take it):

What if – I’m just a person.
And, what if I attract/am attracted by another person.
And maybe I’m not the best I could be in some areas, and maybe he isn’t either.
And maybe that’s enough.

Now I know that’s going to trigger a lot of people who’d say:

‘but oh, isn’t that settling for something less?
‘does that mean you’d accept an abusive/bad/unworthy/non-Male-God-on-Earth partner?’
‘don’t you know you’re a Goddess and you’re worth more, you deserve the best!’

I’ve been asked/have asked those questions on numerous occasions – but right now – they seem driven by fear.

What would you ask is the alternative – Faith?

Well yes.

But without conditions, without expectations and with complete acceptance.

That means no bargaining with the Universe. That means no telling the Gods/Law of Attraction – hey, I’m putting out awesomeness – bring me some of that! Or – I’m drawing in all that I need and magically manifesting goodness and abundance.

That means no rituals, no spells, no setting intentions of manifestation, no trying to deck the cards in your favour. No asking for something.

And that to me – my friends, is absolute surrender. That’s accepting ‘EVERYTHING’. Not just the cuddly stuff, not just the happy stuff.

It’s not about falling into a caretaker/codependent role, it’s not about putting up with domestic abuse, it’s not falling into or out of anything.

It’s calling for much more awareness of self, and my fully embodied presence than ever known or felt.

And really I can’t put it into words.

My brother was asking me (paraphrased) – well – do you still have a boundary by which you would define yourself essence, your self. What would you do if it was not honored?

I couldn’t answer the question.

Now for a woman who is used to the rights/entitlements/legalistic rhetoric, and has spent much of her life fighting what she believes she’s worth, never willing to accept a shred of anything that would question her integrity/dignity/power/ etc… it’s a strange space to be in.

But yesterday, Something Shifted.

A Threshold was Crossed. And I’m not turning back.

I haven’t lost any of that, but they don’t look like the old boundaries, the old weapons, the pedestals of self-righteous anger and defensiveness. Love doesn’t look like it should be a legal contract or a barely veiled threat to come and dance with the Goddess on the Battlefield if you fail to comply.

Something new is coming in.

When I can better put that into words, I’ll let you know.


Bairavee Balasubramaniam

Image: Chlosyne lacinia.jpg, Public Domain via Wikimedia Commons