Why What I Do Isn’t For Everyone (a.k.a something to read before booking a session with me)
Whilst I know this isn’t the type of self-promotional material you’d expect, I don’t believe in beating around the bush. I notice the interest in my work is rising, and with it the need to be specific about the energetic impact of my services and why it’s very different from what a lot of people would expect from an astrological reading.
I find that the people who are drawn to work with me are those who are friends with their shadow and want to get out of the ‘wounded healer’ loop – and again, that has no bearing on whether a person identifies themselves as ‘spiritual’ or not. It does require a commitment to truly get deep within the self, without paying lip service to the concept.
In the session, no matter how short or long it is, we connect at a powerfully deep, energetic level. The chart has a texture and feel of its own, as does the energy of the person I’m working with. And the work of interpretation, shifting and awakening lies in the dance between the two. It is hard to put words to that way of experiencing energy and consciousness – just goes into space that language falls short of.
In facilitating this work, I have to operate a very finely-tuned level of energetic calibration to ensure that the flow is resonant with the Spirit I see, and that vision is not but a projection of my vision.
There is power in the sessions, but also a lot of tenderness and warmth. It is a sacred experience to facilitate this, and to also bear witness to the many transformations that ensue.
In fact, I have felt so much joy in recent weeks with the confirmations I receive from parents who obtain sessions for their newborn babies and infants. There is so much light that comes through, and oh yes, so much sacred darkness (and more energetic experiences, that again .. words can’t quite get to).
Many easily identify my energy with the Earth-Crone or different aspects of the Dark Goddess (Black Moon Ascendant opposed Capricorn Descendant … not that surprising). Sessions with clients tend to manifest spontaneously when Ceres, Juno, Jupiter or Saturn in their charts is activated by transit. That’s an interesting pattern I’ve seen.
I’ve met people who enjoy the work because it gets so deep, and others want to enjoy it. Some clients revel in the expanded perspective it gives of themselves, whereas others wish they hadn’t walked down those doors to begin with.
They are grateful for the insight, resonant with what it reveals, in tune with its truth – but unhappy to see just how far and how deep the road the road to healing and awakening actually goes.
To the best of my ability, I offer ways to shift energy, techniques that can address the particular issues that come to light within the reading. I provide a set of tools that someone can work with – but they still have to want to do that work for any of that to be useful.
The irony is that so much of the spiritual rhetoric we see these days tells us (at an ego-mind level) that that is in fact what we want, when energy speaks so very differently. Many have caught up in the ideals of spirituality without recognizing the real changes they demand.
And I tend to be quite literal when I say these sessions will catalyze deep change at the energetic level. There’s no fluff, and it’s certainly not marketing hype.
There are of course those who seek me out because they see me as an authority of some kind, and want me to confirm their authority or some truth or outcome they are deeply invested in. That doesn’t work either.
That being said, as you can see on my timeline or in the reviews section of The Sky Priestess page, the individuals who come to me are transported after the session. They have a sense of what possibilities lie ahead, what pitfalls they need to explore and what strengths they can’t afford to take for granted. Many of them, especially after the Soul Portrait Masterclass, completely begin the process of building a whole new vision of life for themselves.
Much of these tremendous transformations come through the act of recognition, witnessing and the spiritual equivalent of ‘holding up the mirror, and inviting you to gaze within. Sometimes being seen for what you are is more than enough to catalyze the process of spiritual awakening.
And equally, that very act can terrify another. As wanting to be seen, truly seen, takes an uncommon level of surrender, faith and humility. You might simply not like what’s there to be seen, even (and especially) if the reflection resonates. You might respond with denial, resentment, anger or (and this I find harder to deal with) sadness. The intensity of those reactions speak to how deeply the work has struck a chord.
I am reminded of Caroline Myss’ observations when she first explored the concept of ‘woundology’ or basically where a person _wants_ to stay in their wounds and becomes defensive when that is pointed out to them. I’ve been discussing this recently here ( http://wp.me/p4OUNS-Hh ).
I can’t say I describe my work as a ‘feel-good’ experience or empowering experience – because it is neutral. For some, it’s … the energetic equivalent of a rocket launch into awakening, and for others – the rocket is headed to the one place you didn’t want to go to … within.
So in short, how you choose to respond to it, is how you will take it. I am so glad that, the majority of the time, I draw individuals with the right kind of ‘fit’ for what I do and how.
Some people will require a far gentler, slower process (especially if they’re easily triggered and recovering from the fresh wounds of trauma). In these cases – please do find a different reader. Everyone has a different learning curve and method of facilitation that best suits them.
Others have set expectations (and demands) on readers to pedestalize their pain and valorize a sense of victimhood – which is very different from the recognition and transmutation of pain and/or your relationship with the wound. In these cases – if one chooses to work with me – know that I will call it out. It will not be pretty.
In some cases, I finish the session with a single sentence after studying the situation. The solution can come with a single word and its energy creates the shift. For some, this will be a shock, but a necessary one to jolt the system. For most, the process involves far more engagement. (And – the client only pays for the time they have spent in these special cases)
During the session, should I pick upon patterns of trauma – or even unpleasant possibilities (such as a potential breakup, illness, death) – it is my responsibility as a facilitator to inform you of this – in much the same way you would expect a doctor who spots an anomaly on your charts to inform you that there are certain possibilities that you need to be aware of.
But remember – nothing is set in stone.
Where possible we discuss ways to break through karmic contracts, address deeper energetic issues – or more dramatic solutions to such situations. But that is not always possible as the Soul may have already chosen to have certain experiences that will facilitate its growth.
When I do come across such patterns or possibilities – I do not tone it down or sugar-coat that which I see. This is not a gentle descent into that which is painful, feared or unknown. It is almost instantaneous – as I begin working with your energy even before the session formally begins.
The modality that I work with draws deeply from the shadows of psyche and brings it out into the open without much ado. Things tend to go a lot faster than people expect, which is why – the work successfully breaks through energetic patterns that (for some) have lasted decades, if not lifetimes.
But the medicine often tastes bitter, and it requires you to get to a place of raw vulnerability. In which you are challenged to find your strength.
Whilst I create a safe space for you – it isn´t necessarily going to be a comfortable one. To be truly seen is a terrifying process.
So – those of you thinking about getting a session with me – read this and consider how deep you want to go, if that is what is right for you now, and if you trust my expertise to facilitate with integrity, resonance and love.
I need you to first drop your expectations about what you want to hear from me and how you want to hear it.
I deliver the message in the way your Spirit asks me to, drawn from both the astrology of your chart and intuitive guidance. You are likely to discover a whole new Self – or possibly one you knew was buried, waiting to re-emerge.
Empty The Cup.
The modality and energetic space I operate from is deeply compassionate – and – deeply detached. For some, it will feel like a warm embrace – and for others – it will feel like walking the edge of a burning blade. And that my friends, depends on who you are, what road you are on and where you would like your journey to lead.
I cannot be anything but that which I am – and I am not here to please. I do what I am called to do and each soul has a different requirement. For many, this will be very different from what you are used to expecting from a spiritual reading or facilitation – as my work comes from a very different space.
And that is … Not For Everyone 😉
** Terms and Conditions: Please note that none of the information presented within sessions is meant to replace advice from a medical, healthcare, legal and/or other professional. How you choose to act upon the advice given is entirely based on your own free will. You may use this information for educational and non-commercial reasons, in parts, or in entirety with full credit given to the author and links to her webpage (www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com ). The author shall not be held liable from any intentional, accidental or other consequences of acting upon, sharing, or engaging with this information in any form, including linked material to external sites. Use of any part of this information implies tacit acceptance of these Terms and Conditions.