Tavurvur Bai

Venus conjunct Lilith in Leo: Venus brings to this conjunction an intensification of desire. A pronounced focus, longing, evaluative/judgmental approach to all things related with children, creativity, positions of leadership, romance and the Inner Child Construct. With Lilith in the mix, we’re also likely to strongly attach/detach (depending on your mental conditioning) with circumstances that prevent you from manifesting Leo energy in your life (whether it’s a painting, conceiving a child, getting a position of leadership, falling in love, etc.).

Venus and Lilith strongly evoke aspects of the self we typically identify as ‘feminine’ – Venus teaches us how to manifest and relate to the material world. She teaches how to judge, evaluate, discern – and as you filter your experiences through the lens of perception – to allow yourself to revel in them. Lilith on the other hand, is the visibly Suppressed form of Feminine Energy that now seeks to rise to the Surface and re-claim her place in the world. She is all that is feared of the Wild Woman, The Dark Goddess, the Woman on Fire (sadly literally, as seen in history). You find her in the witch, in the priestess willing to stand tall, in the woman who simply refuses to submit.

In the sign of Leo, the power, vulnerability and authenticity of a feminine psyche coming to terms with itself, realizing and acknowledging who She is in the world – is placed in public view – for Leo is the Prancing Performer, capturing Center Stage. In its less evolved manifestation, this energy can be channeled in ways which project a sense of wounding, vulnerability or even invincibility/bravado that does not accurately reflect the Self, in order to receive attention.

Remember that Leo is the Royal Lion, there is a gregarious energy that is benevolent, that encompasses all with its warmth and joie de vivre. It is the happy King or Queen, comfortable in its own authority and happy to act as a benevolent protector for the good of all. The problem arises when that inner ‘king’ or ‘queen’ is not recognized, validated, or shown to be somehow popular. In this case, the energy of Leo can turn to pretense, ‘playing to the crowds’, domineering behavior – or even – (and here I quote Gargatholil) – settling for someone ‘below your level’ just so you can constantly be held up on a pedestal as ‘a superior’. Which brings me for the power dynamics in the Deep Waters of Scorpio….

Mars conjunct Saturn in Scorpio – Where Venus typically represents a core component of femininity, Mars represents the Masculine. If Venus yearns, Mars goes forth to make it happen. (Note: I’m using a language steeped in gender binaries here for explanatory purposes – there is Venus/Mars/Lilith/Saturn energy in all beings – not limited to specific genders). In Scorpio, Mars seeks power and control, often through dominion. Like Machiavelli, the mechanics of control are often hidden, and plays for power removed from public view. You can easily see how such a bid for power can be so easily abused. However, Scorpio energy is also one of the most powerful portals to the Shadow Self, to all of you which you have not acknowledged (good, bad, ugly, or beautiful).

When channeled with the purpose of Self-Mastery, and Self-Knowing, the energy of Mars in Scorpio is turned inwards. The only control you seek to find is Over self, and you continually strive to get Deeper, get Truer. Become More Real. On the other hand, Saturn in Scorpio presents the energy of karmic test, restriction, limitation and the need for discipline. It funnels and channels the powerful energies of the sky, showing us the need for focus and structure – and how that leads to a more efficient way of channeling power – in the same way that a magnifying glass can channel the sun’s rays to burn leaves. How you use that power, on the other hand, determines the web of karmic dynamics that all of us seek to ultimately dissolve as our Soul seeks Moksha (Transcendence).

In Scorpio, both Mars and Saturn bring back the Man From the Past. It can be a father, brother, even a very masculine mother, or a lover – or some form of energy that asks you to look at your relationship with Yang Energy. Karmic situations are likely to be revisited, as you are called to heal your relationship with what once was, for the sake of what can be. You may find this question present in your most intimate partnerships (sexual, financial, magickal) and find a strong pull towards all that calls you to take a deeper look Within. Those who choose not to, may find themselves entrenched in a deepening web of karmic ties, fortified through the mechanisms of projection. But it’s not all gloom and doom, remember that Scorpio is also the house of Regeneration and Rebirth – just as it is of Death and Transformation. It is the Crucible in which the Phoenix does just so it can be Reborn again.

When all of the energies are in the square aspect, what you get is a quintessential clash of Ying/Yang energy. Venus and Mars are vying for dominance, not realizing that what they require is balance. Lilith looks to the harsh laws and authorities of the past that have caged, slain or demonized her without just cause. Saturn looks to the destabilizing influence (from the perspective of the status quo) that the Rising Feminine can bring, and to traditional perceptions of Masculine and Feminine Roles.

So I’d say this packs quite a punch – It makes me think of a volcanic eruption (see attached image) – Fire through Earth, then Water – Transformed into Steam. That kind of force and intensity that these energies represent.  

The best thing you can do is to choose to be Authentic about who you are, what you want – irrespective of whether people like you for it or not. And if you feel as though you’re not in control, then go to the place within to find your sovereignty and autonomy once more. Try not to find that in the submission or compliance of others. It honestly does not matter if people are trying to do anything it takes to ‘win’, just stay the course and follow your own moral compass. Try not to worry too much about outcomes and you bravely navigate the waters of Authenticity, Embodiment and Self-Knowing.

A few astrological details for those interested – All times in GMT + 8:

Lilith square Saturn – 16 Leo/Sco 45 12:43pm: August 1st, 2014
Mars conjunct Saturn – 17 Sco 40: 2:52 am, August 26th 2014
Venus square Saturn – 17 Leo/Sco 44: 2:18 am, August 27th, 2014
Venus square Mars – 18 Leo/Sco 49: 11:25 pm, August 27th, 2014
Venus conjunct Lilith – 19 Leo 47: 6:15 pm, August 28th 2014
Lilith square Mars – 19 Leo/Sco 53: 3:47pm, August 29th, 2014

Venus in Leo: August 13 – September 6 (2014)
Lilith in Leo: March 5 – November 28 (2014)
Mars in Scorpio: July 27 – September 14 (2014)
Saturn in Scorpio: October 7 2012 – December 24 2014; June 16 – September 18 2015
(December 24 2014 – June 15 2015, Saturn is in Sagittarius. Between June-September 2015, Saturn retrogrades, then moves direct at the tail end of Scorpio once more)

Blessings to All,
Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD

Image information: Mt Tavurvur in Papua New Guinea, which erupted between 1:30 am and 2 am in the early hours of Friday morning on the 29th of August 2014, GMT + 8. Image Source:



Sex and Gender are different concepts. Your genitalia does not tell you to behave a certain way, you are conditioned into it and/or predisposed to certain behaviors through your biological hardwiring – nature / nurture both exert their influence. Certain branches of academic feminism make a wonderful case for defining the relationship between sex and gender differently. For instance – you can look to the work of Judith Butler who speaks of gender as a repeated performance that we enact – if you’re interested in learning more. We all see it differently – but this is the ‘knowing’ that resonates with me. 

In other words – we do not learn how to be a ‘woman’ or a ‘man’ based on genes alone – we are taught how to perform ‘being a woman’, or ‘being a man’. And as we repeat these performances over and over again, we begin to strongly identify with them and consider them as ‘real’. It is the embodied form of the idea that ‘reality is constructed’, and one of the ideas that underpinned my PhD thesis. For if there was but one definition of womanhood, or manhood, wouldn’t we all play it out the same way?

Some women are taught that they have to dress the part, curl/perm their hair to look a certain way, keep their legs together when they’re sitting down, wear lipstick (not too red!) and flowing dresses in order to be ‘a lady’. Other women rebel and wear their wild hair like a mantle over their shoulders and dance by the fires till dawn. Other women cut their hair to within an inch of their scalp and wear clothes which make them look angular, masculine, martial. And other women do other things…. the same with men …. In fact, I don’t know how to define womanhood or manhood anymore – I thought I had an idea, but now I see that that too is my construction and mine alone.

There is such a diverse range of such expressions of gender – Who can say what being a ‘real woman’ or a ‘real man’ is anymore? And why do we insist in linking it with a particular set of genitalia?

I’ve seen men with the nurturing instincts idealized as ‘feminine qualities’ and women who have none of that whatsoever. I’ve seen human tigresses roar and stride into battle, in a ‘man’s world’ and best the alpha male – so much for assertiveness and aggression being ‘a male thing’. (And yes, people still use these outmoded categorizations to put limits on behavior: ‘girls don’t beat boys at games’, ‘girls don’t run’, ‘boys don’t cry’, ‘boys don’t wear pink’ etc.)

It works both ways, and is one of the dynamics which has led to the imbalance in Masculine and Feminine energies which we see in the world today. So what does all this have to do with my study of astrology?


In astrology we associate Air/Fire, the Sun, Saturn, Mars with ‘male’ energies and Earth/Water, the Moon, Venus, with ‘female’, et cetera. I often clarify when I use these terms in my reports as I see them as archetypes which can manifest in all beings. But still that gendered binary gets reproduced ….

I find this deeply problematic – as my personal experiences and explorations of cultural archetypes tell a different tale.  For instance, in primordial concepts of Shiva (male) and Sakthi (female), Shiva is the passive, receptive principle whilst Sakthi is that active, dynamic force. In my experience of reality – I know more fiery women and nurturing men than I do the opposite. Kali-Ma is my Raging Fire and Lord Shiva is the Calm Breeze on the Himalayan Mountain. (For one thing – but I work with different pantheons and archetypes as well: Some days Mother Earth and Father Sun speak instead. You don’t have to ‘pick one’ and consider all else ‘wrong’.)

So for me, I’ve never seen or experienced the elements exclusively in the traditional way described. Here are other examples less contingent on my personal views:

For instance, the Moon – closely associated with the Oceans is often seen in Western astrology as ‘female’. But the Moon is ‘male’ in Vedic astrology, and in pre-Vedic (Dravidian) India, the ruler of the waters, lakes and streams was Lord Varuna/Baruna – again, a male deity. [Incidentally, when I look at an Ocean, I do not see her as entirely Feminine to the exclusion of all else]

The Sun is seen as ‘male’ as in Western and Vedic astrology, but in other cultures – this is not so. Goddess Bhairavi. the Mahavidya, is associated with the Rising Sun herself. Goddess Ameterasu from Japan represents the Sun in all her states. Lady Sekhmet from the Egyptian pantheon is associated with the setting Sun – and I could go on.

So how do we say that A is B, and C is D? How do we say for sure that an energy is ‘this’, or ‘that’? Can we say that one cultural conception is right, and another is wrong? Can I reject Western symbolism, Vedic tradition and/or (pre-Vedic) Dravidian worship wholesale in favour of something else? And then call that other philosophy or system ‘right’?

I don’t know about you, but I can’t do that with a clear conscience. If there is any ‘truth’ that I have learnt in my study on this subject is that’ — We can’t create a Universal Standard that defines what a man, or a woman is, what ideal ‘masculine’ or ‘feminine’ traits are.

The best we can do is go with what feels right for ourselves and allow others to do the same for themselves.

And when it comes to astrology, we need to look at the gendered stereotyping of energies to become a lot clearer of how we talk about energetic influences on people. They’re just not seen or felt in the same way by everyone.

PART 2 of this series will address the androgyny of Goddess Pallas Athena.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD

** Please note that this piece was first published in another blog of mine on July 10, 2014








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All around us, we see signs of suppression, of rising hostility towards the Divine Feminine and Spiritual Paths and Persons who honor Her in ways that challenge deeply rooted patriarchal norms. Whether it’s the abuse of ISIS, or the mis-guided morphing of Goddess Kali Ma’s image with the spectre of religious extremism… Whether it’s the ousting of a sacred grove to Goddess Cybele, or a judge willing to consider outlawing witchcraft and tarot readings …. Or even that email you get in your inbox with one claiming that you cannot possibly be living a life of Love aligned with Spirit because you do not share their faith.

The signs are there – and so many of us, women priestesses in particular, have strong memories of the kinds of suppression, persecution and condemnation that can result – in this life, and in others. Those born as male may also share similarly powerful memories.

Astrologically speaking, the alignment that facilitates this intensifying wave of prejudice against the the Feminine and her Facilitators is the Final Grand Cardinal Cross of 2014. Juno in Cancer squares Pallas Athena in Libra, Uranus Retrograde in Aries and opposes Pluto Retrograde in Capricorn. This alignment began a few hours ago and will last until September 20-21st 2014.

Juno, as I understand her, represents the flow of Shakti, Asherah, Sophia – the primordial Divine Feminine essence in the sign of the Home, Womb and Mother – Cancer. Her position in the skies facilitates a Grand Sextile (when asteroid Bienor is included – watch out for September 13 when the Moon re-inforces the Grand Sextile). This energy has been helping us anchor a new energetic frequency and alignment which allows for a more intuitive, empathic relationship with Spirit – in ways that honor both Masculine and Feminine. With the Grand Cardinal Cross, the same energy is challenged and placed under intense pressure.

Pallas Athena, the strategist, the warrior goddess of war and wisdom, the healer and androgyene watches the world with keen eyes of perception in Libra. He she views the deepening of polarities, she observes Judgment born on the basis of fundamental insecurities and the rejection that often follows. She seeks to avoid battle but will not shy away from standing her ground and holding the fort when her integrity is challenged. She realizes that the words of diplomacy and legality are being used against Her, and she must find a deeper, truer voice with which to reply.

Uranus and Pluto have been dancing together for a few years now – we know what kinds of radical transformation those two have facilitated in such a short span of time. It’s important to note that the Moon activates the alignment and Juno opposes Pluto on August 29-30. Pallas Athena opposes Uranus on September 16. Note that the North Node and Mercury will also be close to Pallas Athena at this time and the South Node with Uranus in Aries.

So what do we do?

Ideally, we re-member, we re-learn how to stand. We stand with integrity in the face of legal, verbal or other forms of challenges. We remember that the response to hate, is simply, not hate. We learn again that hiding in the shadows, and being afraid to practice one’s faith is no longer an option. We find ways to respond to our detractors with grace, with eloquence, with kindness – and no compromise on our right to be who we are, to Serve the Divine as we see fit. It is also a time to know when to pick one’s battles, and how to reach out to others if in need of back-up, assistance or other kinds of support.

We realize, once more, that we have to stick together. And that we will learn so so much through this period.

What we do now, how we respond to the rising challenge – is paramount. I understand the anger that so many of us are feeling now, but it is critical for us to channel it in a constructive form, rather than a destructive one now. I know the Kali/Lilith in us wants to rage at it all… but remember, the Dark Goddess is also the Mistress of Detachment, of Poise , of Grace Under Pressure.

Vanakam, Namaste and Blessings to All,

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD


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How do you Honor your Body? Going beyond exercise regimes, diets and rituals of prayer …


A friend of mine asked me to elaborate on the concept of ‘honoring the body’. We’d had a conversation a few weeks ago where I discussed some practical steps to generally improve the state of one’s health: healthy food, exercise, adequate sleep – the stuff that we all consciously know and (hopefully) try to incorporate in our lives. She’s a spiritualist herself, so making sure there were structured blocks of time, either through ritual, or just free-styling communion with the Divine was an understanding we both shared. 

So when she contacted me again, with the same question, earlier today – I was surprised. Turns out, she’d been doing all the practical stuff to be healthy, etc. and so I asked: Well, what’s missing?

Neither of us knew at that point. So I turned to a handy dandy reference book I have for this sort of thing: The Complete Handbook of Quantum Healing by Deanna M. Minich, PhD – an excellent resource for those into holistic medicine. 

I looked up some emotions, rituals, herbal essences and affirmations linked with the topic we were discussing and as I was writing to her – this just flowed out of me – and the ‘missing link’ clicked in place (for her, my, and your edification). I said:  

Sometimes honoring the body … is less about the physical things we do to heal it, and more about the emotional baggage we choose to stop carrying in order to un-burden the physical form.

So many of us in the intuitive, holistic and alternative healing fields – ‘know’ this information at a cognitive level. When asked about the Body-Mind-Spirit connection, we nod saying ‘Yes, of course’. But in practice, many of us (myself included) still hold on to unreleased fears, emotions, anxieties and worries without realizing what toll they have, over time, on our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health. 

We’ve gotten so used to carrying so much around that we may not even be aware that we’re carrying it. Strong mechanisms of denial, or simply the consequence of becoming ‘too comfortable with discomfort’ can make it a lot harder to ‘get real’ with your emotional state. It’s amazing how blind the most perceptive people are, as to their own individual needs – I find it one of the Universe’s ironies. This is where finding the right healer, therapist, doctor, or friend to hold up a mirror for you (if they’re willing to play that role) – goes a long way in the healing process.

Very often, our bodies are screaming at us to take notice of what we are (willfully or accidentally) blind to. I think a lot of time is saved if we simply started listening to its needs and observing its pains, pressures and weaknesses. 

So the concept of ‘honoring the body’ goes farther than setting healthy personal boundaries, taking vitamins/supplements, exercising regularly or eating organic produce  — it also involves maintaining a state of emotional, mental and spiritual mental balance as well. Becoming aware of and sensitive to these less visible parts of us.

A simple idea, but one that we could all do with integrating into our material lives to a deeper and more profound degree

…in addition to all that stuff we know we should do anyway: regular sleep, less refined sugar, less caffeine, more exercise, eating healthy foods, and so on.

So, let’s use the the energy of the Virgo New Moon (that thinks about this topic quite a bit), and set out intentions to manifest a truly holistic state of health, whilst honoring all aspect of your multi-faceted Spirit-in-Human-Form.


Blessings to All, 

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD

(Just to be clear – I’m not telling you to abandon your usual health-care provider or medical approach – it’s your body, and you decide how you want to treat it. Please consult a qualified health-care professional before attempting major lifestyle changes, especially if already diagnosed with a health condition)






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The Virgo New Moon. 25.8.2014: RE-CLAIMING THE VIRGIN

Reclaiming the Virgin

This New Moon is Here to Serve. Whilst powerful in its own right, its purpose in the grand scheme of things is to set the stage for: the conjunction of Mars/Saturn in Scorpio (squaring Lilith/Venus), 3 Yods (Fingers of Karma), with an opposition to Neptune Retrograde, the shifting of a Grand Sextile (if asteroid Bienor is included), and the build-up to the formation of the Final Grand Cross of 2014. Virgo spiritually and energetically facilitates the powering of these aspects, true to its mission of Earth-Plane-Service.

First I’ll tell you a little bit about the nature of Virgo energy. It’s important for those seeking to understand themselves through astrology to cast aside the many misconceptions surrounding Virgo Energy. Then, I’ll tell about the New Moon and its aspects.

The Energy of Virgo

Many mistakenly equate Virgo energy with submission and subservience, or with sexual frigidity and neuroticism – you couldn’t get further from the the truth. The energy of Virgo is represented by the Virgin Priestess. Vestal Virgins, in ancient times, referred to female spiritual facilitators (priestesses) who had the right to choose their own sexual liaisons. They were not ruled by any law of man. They chose to ‘serve’ others, but were women of independent means.

The reading of ‘Virgin’ as a single woman – presumably unattached due to frigidity and non-compliance with male desire – who is also undesirable on account of her mental acuity and ability to realize plans, and ideas into concrete manifestation – is one that needs to change. It is all too easy to read the imprint of patriarchal thought in the re-imagining of a powerful female archetype, and Now, we are collectively called to Re-Claim the Virgin, acknowledging her Right to Choose, her Power and her incredible Gift of Service.

Virgo Energy is the Mutable form of Earth Energy. If Taurus (Fixed) refers to the Soil of the Earth, ready for seeding and later reaping a harvest from, then Capricorn (Cardinal) refers to the lofty Mountain – the form of Earth that Builds in the name of Legacy.

Virgo, to use the metaphor, is the farmer who has managed to provide for his/her self and family, and is learning how to share the fruits of labour with others. S/he may give some away in the name of charity, or she may learn to set a price that honors the effort put in and the needs of others, in balance.

Virgo is the giver of abundance, and the maker of space. She – as priest/esses and spiritual facilitators often do – ‘hold space’ for another person to exist, to be, to understand their relationship with the Material, and the Source of Spirit that makes it all possible.

Ideally, Virgo gives because she has so much. Because she’s connected to that Source and so she can never run dry.

In modern manifestations of this energy, the many cliches surrounding Virgo emerge when one attempts to fill another’s cup whilst their own is empty.

To truly honor the lessons and gifts that Virgo bestows, it is essential to make yourself able to bless and service or facilitate others from a position of strength, or at least self-sufficiency. This is why Virgo is also associated with health, routines at work, rituals, and the day-to-day activities that keeps our lives moving along. She takes care of the details – and ideally, creates a material life that resonates with the spiritual ideals and path of Service that She stands for.

Make no mistake. She is not a delicate, gentle, compassionate flower (unless she chooses to be), but a powerful facilitator who will not hesitate to stand up for the underdog. She can be both, but it’s important to remember the role of choice in her mode of self-presentation.

The challenges that most spiritual facilitators and seekers (who are bound to have a strong Pisces-Virgo dynamics in their charts) face is getting that balance down. This dynamic is highlighted by the New Moon’s Sun/Moon’s opposition to Neptune Retrograde in its home sign of Pisces. Too often we (and women in particular) are conditioned to learn that service (Virgo) can only happen through sacrifice (Pisces). Whilst that’s a part of it, service can also, and must also, be facilitated through an equal emphasis on self-nurture, and setting the appropriate boundaries that Pisces often seeks to dissolve. We need both Spirit and Form to work in harmony to anchor the spiritual into the material, as so many of us seek to do now.

With Neptune Retrograde in the mix, it’s time to get real about what we can and cannot afford to do as part of our commitment to Self, Spirit and the Path of Service.

Here’s the scoop on the other aspects in the Sky, starting with a review of the New Moon herself:

The New Moon, 25th August 2014

The Moon and Sun are conjunct at 10:11 pm, GMT + 8 at 2 degrees Virgo. This is a powerful portal of opportunity to set intentions to Serve in whatever way you are called to (on the self-nurture/service spectrum). This window lasts for 3 days afterwards.

25-26 August 1995 was the last time we had a New Moon at this degree. Look to the that time in your past to see which cycles you are revisiting and starting a new chapter of, at hopefully, a more evolved, more loving vibration.

At this time, we’re also having the Mars-Saturn conjunction in Scorpio. This energy is asking us to look into the deepest, most hidden parts of our past. Issues of energetic/spiritual/sexual violation may rise to the surface for deep healing at this time. Outstanding debts may make themselves known to you out of the blue, from a long time back. Spiritualists may feel compelled to work with the energies of the Resurrected/Resurrecting Masculine in the Underworld (Osiris in Egypt, and a liminal aspect of Christ Consciousness, for example).

This powerful energy is strongly squared Lilith and Venus in Leo. Such violations, if they occurred in childhood, or if they impacted some aspect of your ability to create, lead and embody your own power are likely to be highlighted

Three Yods or Fingers of Fate/Karma are also present in the sky: Mars/Saturn – Uranus Retrograde – Mercury; Jupiter- Neptune Retrograde – Pallas and Pluto Retrograde – Jupiter – Neptune Retrograde. Mercury (communication, analysis) and Uranus Retrograde (inner awakening, the element of surprise) work together to allow these pathways of energy to ‘bring you back, to take you forward’. You will face karmic situations in need of reconciliation in some form, so that you can then move ahead.

The New Moon’s opposition with Neptune – and the challenge of balancing Service with Sacrifice has already been addressed. It’s important to note that this opposition will activate the yod involving Jupiter (abundance, amplification, higher guidance, ‘the guru’) and Pallas Athena (conviction, judgment, wisdom, analysis, strategy).

Very briefly – this New Moon comes at a time of intense shifting. The Grand Sextile is present in the sky – with the inclusion of asteroid Bienor (7 Taurus) whose influence is largely to test our integrity in uncertain times in the face of potential stability, abundance and a (possibly false) sense of security. The G.S. is shifting its emphasis from Mercury to the Sun, and from Neptune Retrograde to Chiron Retrograde, in the days to come.

At 8:20 am, August 26th 2014, the Final Grand Cardinal Cross of 2014 will form, involving Juno, Uranus Retrograde, Pluto Retrograde and Pallas Athena. I will write more on this aspect as its influence will grow in the coming days.

Both Grand Sextile and Grand Cardinal Cross cease in the final week of September. Juno, the Goddess Asteroid, plays a tremendous role in both alignments. I will also be writing more about her soon.

So I hope this information will help you understand just what’s happening in the sky and some of the challenges and opportunities it brings with it.

So much Love to all – and remember – To Service, does not always mean, Self-Sacrifice.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD



For those of you wondering why the energy has shifted somewhat – the Near-Grand Sextile that we’ve been feeling has momentarily broken. As Juno continues her movement through Cancer, and Mercury speeds away from her – the trine between them ceases to be. Within the next few days, a new trine – and so – a new Near-Grand Sextile will form, this time with the trine between Juno and the Sun in Virgo. Also, Juno will cease it’s trine with Neptune Retrograde and begin to trine Chiron Retrograde instead.

The general ‘flavour’ of configuration will lessen its emphasis on the Mind and deep Intuition/Higher Communion – and will increase its emphasis on creative embodiment of lessons learnt, in order to heal from and teach others through the experience of the Soul’s Deepest Wounding in Pisces.

Time to heal, time to create, time to teach, time to embody the Divine Feminine Many of us will awaken at this time, called to Her Service, particularly through Her Crone Aspect. (e.g. Dhumavati-Ma, Goddess Hekate, The Cailleach, et cetera). Some might also feel drawn to aspects of the Divine Masculine-in-the-Underworld, playing through the themes of death and resurrection (the energy of Osiris, Anubis, Christ, and so on).

I consider this momentary breaking of configuration as a blessing from the Universe, owing to the intensity of the coming Virgo New Moon and the Mars/Saturn conjunction. For coping strategies – you might like to read this rough guide –

Blessings and Love to All,
Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD





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I notice that when people talk to me about their charts they say ‘I AM’ a Scorpio, or ‘I HAVE’ a Scorpio Moon, or something like that. Those are statements which, too often, become badges or labels which people fixate on themselves. I am X, therefore I will act as X does, therefore I will have X , Y, Z, challenges and weaknesses. It’s that kind of self-fulfilling prophecy that can be incredibly limiting.

You’re not a Scorpio, or Virgo, or Pisces or whatever. You were simply born at a time when the Sun transited through a particular part of the sky. The way that interacts with and is expressed through You, Your Essence, your Boundless Soul – depends upon so many factors: other planets nearby, aspects made, where your Ascendant is and so on.

So not all Pisces/Aries/Taurus/pick-your-sign-people are the same. It is a quite damaging thing to claim that you are one thing, your essence is one definable energy, because of one element in your chart. As an intuitive astrologer, I can tell you it does not work that way.

For instance – For some people, the role of the Sun isn’t particularly major in their lives – they’ve got other things going on in their chart. I’ll use myself as an example – I was born whilst the Sun was in Capricorn. As per the astrological cliche I’m supposed to be emotionally reserved, calculating, domineering and fixated on success and ambition (to the point that nothing else matters). Those of you who have interacted with me are probably like – eh?

Whilst I know there are learned astrologers in my group of friends and subscribers – this is a message for everyone who isn’t. The power of such damaging stereotypes is one that is not fully acknowledged in the field of astrology.

Equally, I would consider the very rigid definition of houses and planets in ‘exalted’/’detrimental’ states to be equally damaging (Venus in Aries, for example – tell me, are you really surprised that the energy of the feminine in the sign of the path-breaker is seen as a threat?).

I find that the definitions, of what is ‘good’ or ‘bad’ in astrology, tend to be steeped in the shadow of patriarchy and a very narrow understanding of Spirit.

Let’s take Virgo as another example of an independent, archetypal feminine energy re-written in a patriarchal time. She held her own, she was dependent on no man – and so she was labeled as frigid and difficult. She liked to make sure the details were taken care of – and so she became nitpicky and neurotic.

Does that sound like the energy of the Vestal Virgin that Virgo originally referred to? The sexually liberated, wholly independent energy of the priestess or female spiritual facilitator? …

Feel it… go with your gut. And come to your own conclusions.

(One of many examples I could give you. )

So, for those who are interested in continuing their journey of self-understanding through astrology – I would only ask you to be more cautious with the material you deal with. If something is telling you think a certain way and your gut says something else, follow your gut. As with so many things, there is a whole lot of unnecessary and outdated dogma and tradition surrounding the field of astrology that we really need to shed off and move away from.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not claiming to be the world’s greatest astrologer or claiming to have a monopoly on the knowledge of how astrology should be interpreted.

There are gifted, astrological geniuses out there in the world – and when you have a reading with one of these people – you’re not going to be filled with fear and dread each time you look at your chart. Only today did I hear someone who was told that many planets in the 12th house meant she’d have many hidden enemies.

No one is born with the destiny or karma to fail in love, to be loveless, to never see success, etc. If someone is telling you ‘this is who you are’, ‘this is the way your life will be’ – my advice would be to find a different astrologer.

You are Boundless. Spirit cannot be fully explained through any one method of interpretation. No matter what anyone tells you, ultimately, it is YOUR Chart, and YOUR Life will only manifest through the Choices that YOU make.

Nothing is written in stone.

Blessings and Love to All,
Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD




Image Information: “Antoine Caron Astronomers Studying an Eclipse” by Antoine Caron – [1]. Licensed under Public domain via Wikimedia Commons –


Coping with Mars

Look to Scorpio in your natal chart (Google can help you with free sites to do that is a good place) and see which house it is in. Whilst it is our deepest place of transformation, it, along with Vesta (also in Scorpio right now) also shows us our path to regeneration. Here’s a few ideas – but bear in mind each chart is unique, and each house works differently when influenced by other planets within it:

Scorpio in the 1st house: Release through exercise, meditative practices that involve a recognition of the flow of chi and prana in the body, remember to ground regularly. Martial Artists, Dancers, Athletes, you know what I mean.

2nd house: Have your feet on the physical ground-Earth. Sit in nature, be joyful, try laughter therapy if you haven’t already. Find a reason to really get down and dirty (in the wholesome sense on the term) – quite literally, roll in the mud. (I have a happy memory of doing that with a friend when I was 16, and walking back to my college dorm past a hall full of tuxedoed and gowned guests)

3rd house – Open that voice. Shout. Sing. Write. Post. Express. All that muck, just vent it to the waters run clear once again. Find a friend willing to listen and just talk (but respect their boundaries as well)

4th house – Snuggle up at home, visit your spiritual place of birth. Spend time with your biological or spiritual tribe. Be comfortable in a shared space of connection. And relax.

5th house – Be creative! Be joyful 🙂 Be expressive. And don’t be afraid to ROAR. Play with kids, nurture, teach them. Pick up a paintbrush, go wild with it. Just be you, and allow yourself to ‘let it all out’ on canvas, in dance, whatever touches that artist-creator within . Find love, Be Love, Make Love 😉

6th house – Reach out to those around you and see who needs what. Before you do that, make an inventory of what you need first. And fulfill that before anything else. Take the time to enjoy the familiar, the little rituals that make up your life and your connection with Spirit. Priest/esses and spiritual facilitators are going to be called to serve no matter what, at this time.

7th house – Collaborate. Co-Create. Reach out and share your energy with a partner to create something new. Let your demons look at his/hers, only to realize there’s nothing to fear. Do some shadow-working. Black Obsidian is a great stone for this, Apache Tears , a little less daunting to work with.

8th house – Whoo! Sacred Sex .. Doing your Taxes *I hear a groan*, looking into the occult and esoteric (what feels comfortable for you), honoring past commitments, ensuring that power dynamics flow with integrity and balance in all that you do. Whatever pulls you into that Core of Intensity .. and Uncompromising Truth.

9th house – Get your Indiana Jones hat on and saddle up for a new adventure! Can be travel to a Scorpionic place (a cave, a shrine to a Dark Goddess), find a new way to bring out and express that 8th house energy. Equally, you can start to read a new approach, way of thought or expression that takes you to deeper levels of insight and expression. Remember, the focus is not so much on what you learn specifically, it is on what you experience – and whether it resonates with you. (Truth is so so subjective, isnt it?)

10th house – Put it all out there. The public eye is looking at you, and you have the choice to be intimated, or to rise to the occasion. Embody your Truth and your Deepest Authenticity. Without Fear, Without Ego. Let the Phoenix Re-emerge through this transit. And all will See. Some may choose to manifest this through an intense emphasis on their careers and through financial and other mergers.

11th house – Reach out to like minded souls and raise the vibration. Share, care and learn from one another. Support networks and groups feeling the same energy only get stronger when they choose to release and embrace what they need to. The Soul Tribe calls 🙂

12th house – Rest. Stay indoors. Take the time to ‘be alone’ and process. Simply meditate upon the Divine. Calm the mind and let whatever will be, be. A trip to a retreat in the mountains could also work. Or whatever equivalent you have at home. It’s a place where the formless reigns, so holding onto things just does not work.

Again – take what works, leave what doesn’t. Each chart, each house, each experience is unique. And the houses one another in subtle and powerful ways. Ultimately, find what makes you feel renewed in spirit, with hope revitalized.

I hope this rough guide will be of benefit.

Love to All,
Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD

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23 8 14 astrology heads up

Been a while since I did one of these. Well, there’s a massive buildup of energies in the sky. We’re heading towards a powerful New Moon in Virgo on the 25th, along with the Mars-Saturn conjunction just a short while later. I’ll give you the degrees and times in another post – for now let’s just talk energy.

Mars and Saturn in Scorpio are the biggest players in the sky right now. So many of us, particularly empaths, psychics, priest/esses and other types of sensitives are feeling the building intensity. Sometimes it’s being blindsided by emotions from the past, another’s desire for power over you (often through indirect forms of control), an intense, almost obsessive emphasis on sexuality, occult knowledge, or the deepest form of intense self-knowing and transformation. (or combinations of the above) Those who act without integrity are likely to use the energy to acquire energy, property, currency, anything that is not morally theirs to have. The 8th house, Scorpio, is also associated with the formal distribution of wealth among partners, which can equally apply to a divorce proceeding or reading of the familial will.

So Mars is giving you that drive to act (however you choose to) and Saturn is making you face a test of integrity, karma and whether you have the necessary self-discipline to harness this energy and act in a way that helps you break out of old cycles, and into new heights of understanding.

The two can be a very destructive force, but also a very empowering on (albeit through an intense feeling of stress). Remember that the 8th house is also associated with regeneration, healing and renewal.

With this going on, we’ve got Jupiter in Leo squaring Vesta, and are building up to the exact moment of that aspect. Here the Teacher, the Guru who understands the legitimate, accepted and socially sanctioned Path meets the Priestess who Guards the Underworld. She holds her staff, and strikes it down in the face of Un-Truth, Fallacy and False Interpretations. I expect clashes between understandings and approaches to the spiritual, particularly between partners of some kind (Scorpio). This is also a time where Vesta is unlikely to remain quiet if she feels her faith has been wronged (knowingly or unknowingly) by Jupiter (the guru, the public speaker, the teacher) in a public stage/format/arena (Leo). Parents, watch out for this dynamic when you interact with your kids as Leo also rules over your offspring.

Venus squared Mars is also building up. That classic clash of dominance between one archetype of feminine energy (in Fiery Leo) and another archetype of masculine energy (in Deep Watery Scorpio). This can be powerfully channeled as passion in the bedroom, but more destructively, as interpersonal conflict that takes an all-or-nothing approach to the ‘battle’ of wills.

Mercury trined Pluto not too long ago as the Communicator met the Transformer in energetic synergy. Our vision of how we Serve, our understanding of Sub[ordinance and Authority met our understanding of ‘Success’ and ‘Legacy’ (as seen through society’s eyes. We would have articulated in some form or another, ways to see through the lofty ambitions of Capricorn. But with Pluto retrograde involved, this communicative or analytical act of expression may have simply erupted or emerged, almost beckoned, from the depths of the psyche.

Mercury, Pluto, Juno and Neptune are part of a Mystic Rectangle. All these elements combine to create a great creative flow, if harnessed. Should you repress your emotions and thoughts and feelings at this time, you are likely to feel deeply blocked. Remember to keep yourself flowing and grounded.

The Near Grand Sextile is still in the skies and continues to be till September 21st. Powerful energies of manifestation that continue to anchor the vibration of our collective consciousness, imbued with the imprint of Divine Feminine Energy.

As part of the NGS, we have a powerful Grand Water Trine between Juno, Ceres, Vesta and Neptune Retrograde. The Spirit of the Feminine Half, The Nurturer, The Priestess energetically synergize with the Maya-Maker/Maya-Breaker Neptune.

If it hasn’t been already, your spiritual world is about to be Rocked! Goddess Style!

There’s lots of other aspects in the sky right now. But these should provide you with a solid guide to the most intense of them.

Blessings and Love,
Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD



She is the eldest of the Mahavidyas. Clad in smoke, she rides through the world a solitary figure, accompanied only by her trusty Crow. She is the Hindu Crone Deity, the devourer of Lord Shiva and the Mistress of the Reality Beyond the Veil.

In mainstream Shaktism, She is clad in poverty, despair, disappointment, anger and all those things we instinctively label as ‘negative’ and ‘bad’, she is the Mistress of Maya. Her gifts, her blessings, her golden teachings come through the form of mis-fortune (in the conventional sense of the term), but hidden in each trial, each experience is the kind of wisdom or knowledge you require to transcend your own limitations.

However, in some Tantric variants of her iconography, she is shown as a woman who enjoys meat, wine, sex – all those things which chaste women should simply not do or want (in the Hindu view of the world). Thus, I would say – She is not the Goddess of Poverty or Disappointment, nor is She Prosperity or Virtue.


She simply exists Beyond all those Classifications and Categories of ‘Good’ and ‘Bad’. She is Exactly Whom She Wants to Be.

And perhaps, … that is why She is seen as Terrifying.

Typically, she is worshiped by those who have rejected a worldly life as the kind of knowledge she provides stands in stark relief to social niceties and expectations. A modern-day Dhumavati may appear as the single mother, the divorcee, the widow, the crone – a woman who has simply rejected her reliance upon a male energy as her salvation and is ‘doing it herself’.

She is the only Mahavidya (Wisdom Goddess) who appears without a male consort in some form. She is the Hermit, She is the Wandering-Sage, She is the Woman Unafraid to be Alone and Unprotected as She moves through the World.


Her greatest lesson is one of Absolute Detachment. Categories of pleasure, sorrow, joy, rage, disappointment, no longer exist for Her as she sees the lessons or seeds of new paths that lie within each waking moment. She exists beyond our understanding of Space and Time and represents the Void Itself. The Eternal. The Transcendental Form of Shakti that contains All Within Herself.

Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD

Image Information: “Dhumavati Nepal” by Molaram – Kinsley, David R. (1997). Tantric visions of the divine feminine: the ten mahāvidyās. University of California Press p.189. Licensed under Public domain via Wikimedia Commons –; “Dhumavati” by Unknown – Hindu goddesses: visions of the divine feminine in the Hindu religious tradition by David R. Kinsley, cover page. Licensed under Public domain via Wikimedia Commons –; “Dhumavati silver panel” by Silver_door_in_Amber_Fort,_Rajasthan.jpg: Adaminaderivative work: Redtigerxyz (talk) – Silver_door_in_Amber_Fort,_Rajasthan.jpg. Licensed under Creative Commons Attribution 2.0 via Wikimedia Commons –