Silence. That´s the vibration of what I feel now. Nothingness. The Void. Just Silence. It´s been building for days and appears to be at its climax. Perfectly timed for Mercury´s conjunction with Jupiter at 6 Libra (9:45 am UTC, 11 October 2016). It is the energy of what might be, of nascent potential waiting for a choice, a decision made one way or another – so that it may take form.
As you know, I interpret Libra as the choice or ability to make a decision through the use of detached logic. It may be graceful, it may be harmonious or beautiful – or its absolute opposite. It can be a powerful bridge that spans across differing views and perceptions of reality. It can also be the sword that breaks the bridge in two. Libra´s energy strongly relates with the value systems and choices we make when we enter partnerships and collaborations, be they personal and/or professional. It is also linked with legal matters, contracts and the arts.
Mercury helps us navigate our choices, to perceive, organize, analyse and express information to build a picture that feeds into our system of perception. Jupiter grants us the promise of expansion or amplification in whatever direction we consciously and sub-consciously choose to explore. (That is not always a positive thing)
As the two the come together, we are asked to look at the people, partnerships, and choices which we choose to invest ourselves-and-our-energies into creating or destroying at this time. It´s a very good time for the examination of one´s concept of self, one´s relationship values and ideals, and so on.
From a more spiritual perspective, it is an excellent time to re-think, re-configure and elucidate our ever-constant, ever-evolving co-creative partnership with The Divine, in all of its Forms (Masculine, Feminine, Androgynous, Hemaphroditic, etc.) and Formless States.
The choices we make and the words we utter carry greater energetic weight at this time. So take a moment to pause, breathe and then commit to / away from whatever it is that you must address at this time.
The Masculine-Feminine theme is particularly strong at this time for various reasons:
Mars (9 Capricorn) opposes Persephone (10 Cancer): We are asked to revisit the Persephone-Pluto myth, to question old narratives of just who had agency? For some, it is the straightforward tale of a daughter´s rape and her abduction (from her mother), and for others, it is a narrative of carefully calculated feminine seduction and a daughter escaping an overly controlling mother. Either way, the question comes down to who we believe is truly ´in control´, who has the final, authoritative say on which way the story – i.e. parts of _your_ story – get told. Atropos, the eldest of the Three Sisters of Fate sits at 8 Cancer to tell us that some parts of this story must end as it is their time. (Interestingly, Hades himself weighs in at 6 Cancer, squaring Mercury/Jupiter – it´s the same theme, repeated in a slightly different way)
Mars (9 Capricorn) sextiles Neptune (9 Pisces): An excellent time to set the seeds for the healing of the Masculine and the integration of yang energy within the feminine and masculine / individual / collective psyche. It is wise to avoid games of projection as one simply does not know the full length and breadth of all this species has done to over another, over vast cycles of time. Those with placements near 9 Gemini will experience this as a profound Yod, or finger of fate bringing these energies to an intense, karmic climax. Before the next one begins.
Persephone (10 Cancer) trines Neptune (9 Pisces) and the South Node (10 Pisces): The invitation to look at the cycles of blame-shame-guilt, parent-child bonds, the victim-abuser dynamic and so on. Some of that baggage will be yours, others more so with the collective unconscious. Be willing to see the story in a different way to find new paths of healing, release and transcendence (whatever that means to you). Persephone also sextiles the mean Node (10 Virgo). This is an excellent time to set the seeds for change, for drawing better boundaries and realizing that one does not need to be caught up in the same cycle of drama, to experience the same pain and suffering, repeated ad infinitium (especially with the South Node involved). Those with placements near 10 Aquarius will find this a very interesting Yod to work with.
Venus, Juno and Nemesis are all conjunct one another at 21 Scorpio. Venus refers to the process of material embodiment, the qualities and form of the feminine and to the pleasure we sustain by simply being. It also relates to finances and just about anything tangible that involves the generation of beauty, pleasure and abundance. It is certainly one archetype of the Feminine. Juno, as I understand her, is the Goddess of Thresholds – and She finds ways to keep moving us towards the next one through soul-mates (not necessarily of a pleasant, romantic, marital kind – but potentially the very opposite). Nemesis refers to an ancient winged Greek goddess of Justice who comes to clear and re-balance the scales of karma.
All three sitting in Scorpio, that´s … a whopper!
We are asked to face the Scales of Karma in the psychic Underworld. Do we honor the Dark Feminine? All aspects of Goddess (however defined)? Or do we limit our conception that which is familiar, comfortable and/or idealized? And who – in our lives – brings us the push, the need to get deeper, to recognize what we have neglected, denied, suppressed or ignored?
Scorpio´s role indicates one with whom we merge our energies – be it ´in the boardroom or the bedroom´. It can easily refer to a Shadow-worker or shaman/ka or simply one who makes us meet the Shadow within.
Venus, Juno and Nemesis all trine Chiron at 21 Pisces. Again, this exploration goes into the deep waters of Spirit, emerging from channels whose origins we have (mostly) forgotten. It is a certainly a time to explore these trickier questions of sexuality, femininity, power and and its balanced expression – through the deep waters of Karma. It´s… gonna very be very interesting for those of you with placements near 21 Cancer – as that will then be a powerful Grand Water Trine. Deep waters, indeed. Cyllarus is at 21 Cancer for us all – and let´s just say this is an impulsive energy, one that does not think before it leaps and reaps the consequences of rash judgement. Take the time to breathe before you emotionally react to something, it will help.
Some fear the Feminine´s rise to power and others see it the dis-empowerment of the Masculine as its prerequisite. I wouldn´t consider either a balanced view as God-Goddess, energetic archetypes, The Divine knows no form or gender. They cut through all of the above. And if we are to heal as a species … we´ve got to start with the schisms within, and with one another (as appropriate).
So – taking it all together – it´s a powerful time to make choices. Ones that can reinforce karmic cycles of wounding and rejection – or to walk away from them. Don´t be afraid to draw boundaries, especially when you feel coerced or guilt-tripped into giving more than you should. It doesn´t matter who´s asking.
Our choices – especially now – have the power to build Rainbow-Shadow bridges of healing that will create new pathways for change within and without. With Libra, it starts in the mind as a choice that is made. Your reality will then begin to form surrounding that choice.
This year´s September Equinox is woven into several other major celestial alignments. I begin with events that flavour the day itself (22nd September) and upcoming astro-highlights that gradually intensify their focus and energy – up to the point they go exact. It´s all about what´s going down between September 21-26, 2016.
Equinoxes are times where the length of the day matches the length of the night. They are turning points on the wheel of the seasons, more noticeable the farther we get from the Equator. They are celebrated as moments of time where we honor Balance. Of Light and Dark, Day and Night, Pain and Pleasure, Male and Female – or whatever other dualistic binary you prefer working with. I liken it to the symbol of the Tao / Taijitu / Ying Yang symbol and the overall impression of dynamic equilibrium that it evokes. You can use this symbol to equally interpret the significance of solstices. I leave it to you as an exercise in interpretation should you wish to gaze upon it and the messages it offers.
Astrologically speaking, the theme of balance is reinforced beautifully by the fact the Sun enters Libra at the time of the September Equinox. Libra is of course the energy of Balance and Equilibrium, represented by the symbol of the Scales of Justice. I (like a few other astrologers who prefer re-working codes and symbols) do not exclusively see Libra as representative of beauty, grace and harmony as per social codes or norms. There are multiple ways of finding balance in the world: one through gradual change and the other through violent disruption. The scales can re-balance themselves gently, or swing wildly till they finally settle. It´s diplomacy with the dove or by the sword.
As the Sun enters Libra, it also approaches the Super-Galactic Center (now at 1 Libra): what I interpret as one of the most powerful points of karmic/spiritual influence that we know of in our understanding of the cosmos through an astrological perspective. Between September 22-24, you will have the experience and opportunity to either re-negotiate, initiate or perhaps even dissolve long standing energetic contracts. This may manifest in terms of a personal partnership, a professional collaboration, or simply (and profoundly) the way one soul chooses to engage with another in on a one-to-one basis. Some of these negotiations will be graceful and others will feel like diplomacy wielded by the edge of a burning blade. It is also a fantastic time to do meditative work with the nature of the Primordial, Cosmic Void (if you are already familiar or initiated into that kind of spiritual work/element/experience).
At the same time, Mercury (14 Virgo) will be trined Pluto Retrograde (14 Capricorn). In fact, Mercury stations direct on the 22nd (same date as the Equinox, depending on time zone – 21st night for those of you in the Americas), hours before the Sun enters Libra. This is especially significant, for a whole range of reasons. You may find new answers arising to situations that have been taxing your mental nerves for the past month coming up after the Equinox. Look especially at questions or decisions you took around September 6 (as that is when the Sun was at 14 Virgo, close to the North Node and trining Pluto)
I see this as a powerful time for us to reconsider how we interpret our paths of service, healing and practical manifestation. Do we serve in ways that disempower the self, or others? Do we create cycle of dependency or sustainable self-sufficiency? Does our work tilt the scales in favour of a socio-politically tilted status quo, or do we, in our own ways, challenge it? Those of you with placements near 14 Taurus will experience this as a profound Grand Earth Trine – truly powerful possibilities for reconfiguring your relationship with the material realm and what and how you choose to manifest (and why).
Think about the bigger ripples that your work is creating in the world and whether they in fact lead to the right places. It´s certainly been a theme strongly informing my own thoughts as of late as I have been working with kids with genetic disabilities and families in need through a local charity. It´s been .. a very intense experience. Heartbreaking and heartopening in so many different ways. And it really makes you think about the legacy you leave behind through how you serve.
Some things, do need to be questioned – no matter how holy the garb they are adorned in.
Mercury will also square the Great Attractor (14 Sagittarius). It is a powerful time to orient one´s self with a Path, Paradigm, Teacher, Mentor or Journey which will lead you to a different horizon. It could even be a flight overseas or taking a new course to broaden your own mind, or learning a different language. Some of you will find what you want by realizing what it is that you don´t want, whereas, others will be guided straight to what they do need. It´s all about how we navigate the celestial information coming to us now.
In the buildup to the Equinox – on September 21st – we also see the Gemini Moon squaring Saturn, the North Node, the South Node, Neptune and Mercury. There´s going to be a lot of emotional intensity and the possibility for breakthrough coming through the form of an Intense! Grand Mutable Cross. It is … so incredible to note that the Cross (made by way of the Moon´s transit) ends right before the Sun enters Libra! ! ! Wowza! You could not make that up!!!
We´ve been experiencing this Mutable-Squared energy for quite some time now, and so some of the challenges that come up now may seem very familiar. Siblings and/or others who feature prominently in your daily environments/early childhood may be powerful catalysts for awakening.
Otherwise, just stay open and pay attention to the messages that appear, the writing on the wall and so on. Writing and speaking may have a cathartic effect for those who feel especially bottled up. Blue lace agate will help to calm the edge of unbridled anger whereas aquamarine will help to organize and clarify the expression of emotion and will.
As I (and many, many other astrologers) have been saying for much of 2016 – it is a year of Navigation. You find the road or Path to Spirit that truly brings you in alignment with the unknowable, formless, nameless – utterly transcendental – experience of the Sacred. We are also called to hone and harness more sophisticated and grounded paths of service that channel this energy whilst moving away from sacrifice-suffering-oriented models of growth that ultimately get us entrapped further in the karmic game. But everyone will have their own take on that.
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Unsurprisingly, I´m now at Siem Reap (close to Angkor Wat, the temple-megacomplex dedicated to Lord Mahavishnu and Lord Shiva and …. as far as I am concerned, built by the descendants of the Southern Indian Chola empire) with my older brother!
Whoo!!! I´ve been trying to get here for the past 2 years and each time something has gone wrong with the booking. Either the flight didn´t go through or the hotel or some other weird shenanigan. But FINNAAAALLLYYY!!!!!!! SIEM REEEAPPP!!! YEEAAAAHHHHH!!!
ANGKOR WAT, HERE I COME!
I´m hoping to see more of the representation of the Feminine in some of the smaller temples. Graham Hancock´s reading of Angkor Wat and its cosmological significance is… well… stellar 😀
Okay .. back to the astrology, having got that out of my system.
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At the time of the Equinox, Venus (28 Libra) will be squared Thereus (28 Cancer). It is an excellent time to be moving past victim-abuser dynamics passed down the generational line and reproduced in one´s personal and professional partnerships. If you´re in a relationship where you feel like you´re being controlled/are controlling – walk out of it and allow yourselves to open up to new definitions of what a relationship can look, feel and taste like. There´s going to be power play here and the best way to get out of it is to simply walk away. No one deserves to be bullied or made to feel as though they are undeserving of love, nurture, respect, and so on.
Mars (26 Sagittarius) will be nearly conjunct the Galactic Center of the Milky Way (27 Sagittarius). Find your Path and Launch! It echoes Mercury´s square to the Great Attractor in a powerful way. Choose a road, and if you find it´s the wrong one for you later .. you still get to change it. Either way … Initiate!
Now … for the two BIG celestial shifts that we´re already in the process of building up towards: Pluto stationing Direct. And …. URANUS CONJUNCT ERIS Pt. 2 (of 3) !!!!!
On September 25, 2016 – Uranus will conjunct Eris (exactly) at 23 degrees Aries. This isn´t something that a single article or series of articles can adequately do justice to.
Eris represents the Rising energy of the Feminine and Uranus brings in the possibilities of Change, Transformation and Awakening. Eris is also associated with the Discord that is wrought of wide-scale War (think of Troy). When these two get together, there´s going to be a multi-channeled awakening of Feminine energy.
Some of it will Fiercely Nurture and some of it will want to Destroy the world that enslaved it so. Personally, I believe that Fierce Love and Restructuring of the Collective need not necessitate Violence. That may be idealistic talk for some of you, but it´s the energy that I wish to bring to my engagement with Eris-Uranus. The first activation was in June 2016 and the final one will be in March 2017.
My suggestion to you would be to engage with this energetic signature (especially those of you who channel Dark Goddess energy) from a space of Calm. From the Heart. You may want to read my earlier piece on ´When Not All Darkness is Sacred: Things to Bear in Mind when Embodying or Channelling the Dark Goddess´ – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-1mo .
Coming from the Heart and striving to find a space of Detached Calmness through the Storm does not negate the need for Change nor does it invalidate the pain and suffering that so many have borne. It simply means that we will be in a better space to act upon our deeper impulses and drives in ways that do not cause unnecessary damage. You will act out passionately, in whatever way you see fit, so it is best to have a counter-point, an anchor which allows you to reflect upon what you´re doing, how and why. The video attached was made during Uranus-Eris conjunction in June 2016, addressing this very issue:
Back to the present … and near-future . . .
Ungrounded souls will be in need of support and sanctuary. Those of you who can freely give it without condition, please extend your support. Being ungrounded at this time isn´t a measure of how ´spiritually awakened´ (whatever that is / however that is measured) you are. Some of us working with the new channels of Feminine energy have had to re-learn our spiritual alphabet as it were, back to the basics. Baby steps as we birth a new Love-Wave.
The picture I´ve used for this post symbolizes that energetic anchoring and intent.
I went to a Goddess temple after a long day of witnessing pain and contemplating the nature of the Universe that would tell a parent that a genetically … malformed? defective? (I really don´t know the right word – anger surges through me when I think about it) – that a genetically impaired child deserves their lot in life because of sins from their past births. And I roared and I prayed for two hours, which felt like all of five minutes.
I noticed that lights were lit for every major statue in the temple and that the wind had blown out the much-neglected statue of AshtaDurga (the Eight-handed Goddess Durga). I lit her lamp, prayed and – much to my surprise and joy – it stay lit through the wind. I obtained permission and took a photo of Her. The image is my take on that photo – and the Violet Ray came through. For others it will be Magenta, or even something different (it´s certainly not just one channel opening up for me and others at this time). I will discuss this further as we get closer to the actual Eris-Uranus conjunction.
Whatever you do, however you choose to engage with Her Energy …
Bear in mind the lesson of Libra: What will it be? Balance through Peace, or the Blade of War? You – We – will all pick.
Just a day later (September 26, 2016) – Pluto stations direct. It´s the end of the Pluto retrograde, this round of it at the very least. Some of the most intense aspects of the ´descent´ in the Underworld / Shadow Work / Ancestral Work / Deep Healing will cease. A moment of relief as it were. As we slowly move back into … shall we say a lighter shade of black.
I hope it is a time where we can choose to move past that drama (i.e. energetic, emotive intensity) of victimhood and bullying … suffering and struggle … power and its abuse …. or – at the very least – to see that other alternatives to the narrative are present.
September 25/26, 2016 is also a powerful time for another reason – Saturn´s squares to the North and South Nodes go exact at 11 degrees Sagittarius-Virgo-Pisces. If you´ve got a body near 11 Gemini, it becomes … one heckuva Grand Mutable Cross. If you haven´t aligned or chosen the path you want to align with yet, something will happen at this time to push you towards it. Be open, see what comes. If everything gets too intense – just remember to breathe. You win points just for being here and doing no intentional harm to Self and Others.
There´s of course other alignments going on … but I felt these to be the most important to address at this time.
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Last but not least, I´ve been asked about sessions at this time. I will officially open sessions from the 28th onwards till October 7, 2016. Those of you who want to pre-book, just use this link (times shown in your timezone): http://veribook.com/viewAvail/CRrmFRpVvc – for the Vesta/Eris/Mnisession. If you´re looking for one of my other sessions, just get in touch here 🙂
Those of you who want to work with this … incredible energy in a focused way, consider booking a session between the 24-27th of September on an ad hoc basis. Alternatively, you might simply want to experience the energy first-hand, which is fantastic as well. I´m saying that I´ll be around, but … tune in to see if it´s an experience you need – and if you really need that extra edge or intensity.
I only offer a session if I feel it´ll benefit someone, and many of you will find answers in the skies themselves. Some of you will need to wait till the Storm passes and others will Dance at Her Center.
All Good. All Valid. All Needed Approaches. No one´s way is as good as the way you find for yourself, as part of your own process. Do not feel the need to make comparisons – your story, however you choose to write it, is a valuable, unique and original contribution to the story we are all collaboratively creating together… with the God/dess & Cosmos & Whatever-it-is-you-understand-as-The-Sacred.
We begin this article with an astronomical note, followed by the spiritual and energetic analysis this alignment brings to us all. It is a potent Eclipse and one which brings with it the opportunities for many beginnings, endings, release, healing … and initiation unto a new Path. One that will, at the very least, involve a re-conceptualization of the road you´re headed on, the world you want to create and be a part of. It´s hard to say whether this alignment is more Yin or Yang as the Masculine and Feminine come through very different, and often overlapping channels at this point in time.
The Moon (24 Pisces) opposes the Sun (24 Virgo) at 19:04 UTC on 16.9.2016, creating a penumbral lunar Eclipse, meaning that the Earth´s outer shadow falls on the Moon as the Sun, Earth and Moon line up together in space. Those of you in Europe, Asia, Australia, Africa, West in South America, Pacific, Atlantic, Indian Ocean, Arctic, Antarctica may see a partial shading of the Moon (if you see any external difference at all).
From the astrological perspective, Eclipses are particularly significant as they act as funnels or intensifiers of cosmic energy, setting and releasing cycles of growth, change and experience in mathematically exact cycles. I work with the Saros cycle system, which sees different iterations or members of ´eclipse families´ occur in sequence, each eclipse separated by approximately 6,585.3 days (18 years 11 days 8 hour) intervals.
So, look back to the previous members of this particular Eclipse family to see how the flow of energy carries through these hyper-activated points in space-time. This eclipse is Number 8 or 70 in Saros cycle 147. This eclipse was preceded by 7 others and will continue to perpetuate itself through a further 62 eclipses, beginning on July 2nd 1890 and ending on 28 July 3134. This refers to the Lunar (as opposed to the Solar) Saros series 147.
The most recent eclipses in this series occurred on 26th August 1980 and 6th September 1998. The next two eclipses will occur on 28th September 2034 and 8th October 2052. Look back to those previous dates to see where the energy you´re feeling comes from (or is linked to) and to the future dates to see where it may continue to play out.
And now, the astrological and spiritual interpretation of the Pisces Penumbral Eclipse (16.9.2016).
ASTRO-SPIRITUAL INTERPRETATION …
The Lunar Eclipse is, by definition, a Full Moon. We have discussed above the 18 year cycles that connect families of eclipses. In astrology, we can also find a connection between events that occur at a particular degree of an event, or, through the cycle of energy between the New Moon and Full Moon.
New Moons are excellent time for the seeding of intentions that they may culminate with the corresponding Full Moons of the signs these occur in. Therefore, the energetic seed set for this Pisces Eclipse (September 16 2016) began (in addition to the 18-year eclipse cycles) on the Pisces Total Solar Eclipse / Pisces New Moon 2016 (March 8, 2016).
You will see the seeds you set recur in some form during this Eclipse. As we´re speaking of Pisces, we refer to matters that link with your deepest, nameless, formless, unquantifiable and absolutely inexplicable relationship with Spirit/uality. It also refers to our relationship with cycles of karma carried through past-lifetimes and through intergenerational work. Here is where we consider the liminal nature of the boundaries, or thresholds, that separate the energetic frequency of consciousness/perception we understand as reality – from other alternatives. It is where, in other words, the Veil is thinned.
The psychically sensitive will benefit from the use of Frankincense oil as this will help you purify your energetic space. Make sure you use a high quality oil which you are not allergic to. Purifying gemstones such as selenite will help to clear space. Stones such as celestite and kyanite can help to open psychic bridges or pathways to other levels of consciousness – if you feel this is a safe and necessary thing to do in your journey. Aquamarine will be using in finding clarity and focus through emotional turbulence, especially when you need to come to the point of taking action in some form.
Always (especially now) seek out the guidance of a facilitator you trust if you feel you need some perspective. Those of you drawn to working with me at this juncture in your journey, please note that my next round of sessions will be between September 19-30, 2016. I´m letting the energy of this alignment settle a little first.
The Sun (24 Virgo) conjuncts asteroid Minerva (25 Virgo), asking you to hold in mind the role of the discerning mind and intellect in navigating amorphous psychic energy / impressions at this time. Not all that glitters is gold and not that that slithers is evil. So much of what we perceive passes through a mental filter which may or may not be accurate. Minerva´s role in this alignment tells me that the Goddess´ blessings are showered upon those who seek to find paths of healing, wholeness and service through the psychic or intuitive revelations shown to them at this time.
The Moon, Sun and Minerva square the asteroid Pholus (24 Sagittarius). Pholus is associated with the nature of revelation that – once known – cannot be unknown – and so creates an irreversible effect. It speaks to the power of knowledge, and with it forms of change that it necessitates. It ripples through the cosmos, affecting us through the generational lines. According this fantastic article (on the power of Pholus and what it can bring to you – astropost.blogspot.com/2010/04/pholus-files.html ), it is also an energy that can put a stop to addictions. I read that as a call to end the compulsive, sub-conscious impulses that lead us to karmic decisions, cycles and experiences that we are ready to integrate and ultimately, no longer be governed by.
Amethyst (the gemstone) can help in finding the mental clarity, whereas, Malachite can help with finding the willpower needed to overcome addictive compulsions. (All of these tools can help, but the real work still comes down to You.)
Now … the Galactic Center of the Milky Way is at 27 Sagittarius, 3 degrees away from Pholus. You´re going to find your paths, guides, mentors, gurus, teachers, astrologers, oracles, etc. to profound be way-showers at this time. Sometimes you will be lovingly brought to a new space or direction, and at other times, forcibly kicked out. You may feel drawn to or repelled from a particular path or person – and that is orient. It is all part of your initiation unto a new journey or chapter.
With this powerful energy of revelation comes change. The information you receive now may sweep you off your feet in a good way – or – make you feel like the rug you´re standing on has just been pulled away from underneath. Different people will respond differently and so there is no hard and fast rule. I would recommend grounding practices, whilst consciously choosing to remain present, open (and protected) to whatever emerges through this transit.
Psychic protection is a must. Frankincense, camphor, neem or lime (oils), labradorite or black obsidian (gemstones) can help immensely. Consider smudging your space with white sage, incense, palo santo and the like.
The healing potential of this eclipse is emphasized as the Sun sextiles, whilst the Moon trines Panacea ´the cure to all ills´ at 23 Scorpio. Those with bodies near 23-24 Aquarius will experience this as a powerful Yod (Finger of Fate), bring you swiftly to karmic crossroads. Here you will choose what ideological framework you continue to situate your ideals and sense of individuality within as you navigate the depths in the search of healing, or paths of service. It is in this search that Panacea offers her remedies.
Panacea is conjunct asteroid Isis (23 Scorpio), opening a different level of interpretation and meaning for ritual practitioners / spiritualists who invoke the energy of this Goddess. The symbol of the Ankh appears to be of immense significance at this point of time. Remember that Isis brings life and healing, and it is she who goes into the Underworld to put together, build a new phallus for and resurrect her husband Osiris (The Wounded Masculine).
With Chiron at 22 Pisces and Atlantis at 22 Cancer, we see the role of psychic healing, wounding, trauma and energies that connect with past-lifetimes in oceanic/underwater civilizations heightened. Larimar (the gemstone) can be an intense, but effective catalyst in working through the deeper emotions and memories these alignments evoke. Together with Panacea, Isis and the Moon, Chiron and Atlantis come together to form a potent Grand Water Trine in the skies. One that brings out a wide range of emotions, intuitive, karmic and psychic possibilities and experiences.
What also strikes me as curious is the fact that the March 2016 New Moon / Total Solar Eclipse also had Chiron conjunct the Moon, just as we now experience. The Wounded Healer asks us to look back to then, and now, to see what lessons we have learnt, and will continue to learn hereafter. There is the choice to transcend a particular cycle of pain and wounding, and another to accept it as a path of service. Neither choice is more sacred than the other and let no one bully you into thinking otherwise. Charoite is a gemstone that can help those seeking clarity on this particular question.
There are … so very many different asteroidal, planetary and other conjunctions that make this Eclipse an extraordinary one. I´m going to conclude this article with a brief summary of a few of these aspects:
(1) Jupiter conjuncts the Super-Galactic Center (1 Libra): Our path to growth comes through the dissolution or creation of partnerships and collaborations in alignment with our Spirit and its connection with the energies of the Cosmos (our perception of All-That-Is). Many karmic contracts will be dissolved and others may (or may not) rise to take their place. There´s a lot of energetic recalibration underfoot as we rethink our visions of balance, justice and co-existence in the world (and how all of that is possible). There are moments where we are subtle, where we do not engage – and others where we roar charging into the arena to seek justice and redress.
(2) Mars (23 Sagittarius) trines Psyche (23 Leo) / Phaethon (22 Leo) and Uranus/Eris (23 Aries), creating a Grand Fire Trine at the 23rd degree of all Fire signs. Long story short is is when we reclaim the narrative of the Rising Feminine and integrate (or … if you still don´t see Her place in the world as a valid one) or exclude it from religious, spiritual, philosophical and/or intellectual paradigms and paths. You get to re-write Your-and-Her stories right now. Follow those impulses and act upon them, but make sure you don´t burn yourself out in a blaze of righteous fury and then have no energy left for anything else. We´re all burning, the world´s burning in its own way – and let us honor one another in our search for expression, passion and truth. There´s going to be a lot of reactive energy to Daddy-Patriarch, let us not let it spin our own compasses out of control. Focus your energy into the change you want it to manifest as.
(3) Saturn (10 Sagittarius) squares Neptune (10 Pisces), Eris (23 Aries) conjuncts Uranus (23 Aries). I´ve lumped these two together as I´ve written on them quite a bit before. Re-cap: We are asked to better align our Paths with the deeper Guidance from Spirit. We are asked to recognize (and embody) the archetype of the Rising Feminine in all aspects of our being, and the world-as-we-know it. They´re HUGE alignments, but ones we have been experiencing for most of 2016 in one form or another. Saturn squares the North Node (11 Virgo) which opposes Neptune and the South Node (11 Pisces). There´s a lot of karmic drama that this plays out through and much of it will relate to our paths of service and numinous experiences of what we truly consider ´the Sacred, without necessarily requiring intermediaries.
(4) Vesta (20 Cancer) squares Venus (21 Libra) and Uranus-Eris (23 Aries). If you recall my article on the Virgo Solar Eclipse 2 weeks prior, I made the case for taking note of Vesta at this particular degree as she plays a significant role in our collective evolutionary process, at least, till 2020 – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-1nz ! I see this as a time where the Priestess realizes that she need not sacrifice her femininity, emotion or home to perform her service in the world, nor does she need to be enslaved by it all. Relationships will be powerfully reconfigured at this time – and potentially dissolved – if they seek to confine the Feminine to its (purely) domestic, sacrificial expression. Whilst mothering and nurturing your family is one of the most sacred acts of service a person can do, it need not be the only, or even, the primary way that the Feminine can be of service. I see this as a clarion call to (Pluto in) Capricorn, which gives us the opportunity to reconfigure our visions of power and the role of the feminine in the institutions that contain them.
(5) South Node (11 Pisces) trines whilst North Node (11 Virgo) sextiles Black Moon Lilith and Juno (13 Scorpio). The Karma we seek to clear pertains to the Shadow Aspect of the Feminine. Which is not an evil thing, but often carries the weight of karmic baggage and projection. An excellent time to perform healing rituals or … call it rituals of love … with/upon/for deities and archetypes of femininity that represent the wounded, scarred or forgotten aspects of She-Who-Is-Goddess. It is time to realize that the Dark Womb is Sacred Ground, rather than the chamber of shame, neglect, abuse and judgement. Those of you with placements near 11-13 Cancer will experience this intensely as a Grand Water Trine, whereas those with placements near 11-13 Aries will experience this as a pivotal Yod (Finger of Fate).
So …. like I said, a lot is going on the skies and these are selected vignettes of the celestial symphony. Stay safe, stay grounded, stay protected. And then open yourself to the embrace of the skies. You might find a new way to see it all.
General Gemstone Tip. Try working with Sugilite. I find it resonant with the energies of the Goddess, in her many, many forms (and states of formlessness).
Last night, I went out with my family as I needed to unwind after the intensity of the past few days – and the sessions therein. Deep energetic facilitation on the self or others evokes powerful and complex emotional, psychological and spiritual responses. Good self-care for facilitators involves some element of downtime after particularly intense work.
There´s an essential oil shop nearby the place we usually hang out. I headed in and sniffed out my usuals: Rose, Lavender, etc.
And my nose just said, hell No.
The oil base they´d used simply overpowered the scent of the oils themselves and I just wrinkled my nose at it.
Okay … so I waved my hand over 10 rows of roughly 60 or 70 bottles and picked up which ones I felt drawn two.
One was Frankincense (Boswellia carterii). Excellent for opening spiritual channels in a protective way and for banishing entities from spaces – in a nutshell. That one I had used before, at the suggestion of my dear sister Petah-Jane Auckland-Hall (my go-to expert for oils!).
The smell was uplifting, as usual. So I grabbed that.
The other scents were Palmarosa (which I came across first) and Pettitgrain (the last). Both of them were new to me.
Palmarosa (Cymbopogon martini) is a calming oil, eases nervous exhaustion and provides a mental focus before ritual work. It also calms excessive heat in the body, matters of indigestion and body pain.
It´s also an excellent regenerator for the skin 😀😀😀 Which is perfect for my pirate scar from recent surgery.
Petitgrain (Citrus aurantium) turned out to be perfect for the release of dense emotions from the self and from one´s space. It facilitates winding down, particularly after intense energetic facilitation (and what it evokes in yourself or who you´re working with).
I kept getting drawn to citrussy smells – which fits current astrology. These are smells that stimulate the stomach and purify one´s space. Which is perfect for today´s Sun/Mercury Retrograde conjunction at 20 Virgo. A time we focus on our mental, physical, spiritual and energetic health, boundaries and practices. This is especially important for those who identify with the archetype of the Priest/ess or Facilitator, especially those who seek to preserve, nurture and/or heal personal-and-planetary energies.
As an Earth Element, Virgo focuses its energies on the material form – but – being ruled by Mercury, also brings a sharp intellectual or analytical focus to the way the work gets done. It corresponds strongly to the suit of Pentacles in the Tarot.
Virgo is also associated with the digestive and absorptive processes as well as the nervous system. Bellies are more likely to be sensitive at this time, so take it easy in terms of food intake, if you feel that´s right for you. The same applies to situations that cause nervous strain.
This conjunction is squared Mars at 20 Sagittarius. There are many ways to respond to the challenges, messages and opportunities presented by Sun-Mercury Rx. Do not assume that your path or method is the best for everyone else, but do take bold steps towards your own movement – in the direction of your choice. The same applies to healing or energetic modalities.
I would highly recommend working with the oils mentioned above (Palmarosa, Petitgrain, Frankincense), should your noses be drawn to them, gemstones such as citrine and yellow or golden topaz, should your bodies be drawn to them, and with the archetype of the Lion. Working with the Gold or Yellow ray in meditation will be beneficial.
Petah (my dear sister) also suggests Lime, Lemon and Wild Orange (essential oils). I´m not surprised I wasn´t drawn to these as they´re part of my regular diet – but they will most certainly be of use in this alignment.
In terms of meditations, I would suggest working with the benevolent presence of Ma Pratyangira Devi. Here is a powerful mantra of hers, symbolizing the archetype of the Golden Lion (and many other things). Pay attention to your Solar Plexus, and, if appropriate, your Third Eye or Throat Chakras (or whatever comes up for you).
That being said, if you´re already over-activated .. try something calming instead, possibly through a different elemental/energy base. I would recommend Lepidolite or Amethyst or Blue Lace Agate (gemstones) and Lavender (the essential oil) for anxiety and stress. Light Blue is a lovely colour to work with in this case.
I work with this meditation and encourage my clients to do the same when energetic calming is required. This is an invocation of the angelic host from the Hebrew tradition.
Also, it might be worth checking in with a good practitioner if you are unsure about how to use them and/or are allergic or sensitive to gemstones/oils. Even the best medicine, applied in an incorrect way, can become poison.
Always, always tune in to your own body before trying something new – and (in addition to that) seek guidance from one with the requisite experience.
Having said that, my experience with essential oils and gemstones, and their intersections with astrology and spirituality has been a joy <3
We begin this article by looking at the future that we are about to create.
At 9.03 am UTC, 1st September 2016 – the Moon conjuncted the Sun in a Solar Eclipse (New Moon) at 9 degrees Virgo.
Solar Eclipses / New Moons are potent times for the setting of seeds, or intentions which we reap – or see culminate – at moments predicted by the mathematics and energy of astrology. The seeds you set now you will most certainly see during the next Virgo Full Moon (March 12, 2017).
That´ll be interesting as the Sun will conjunct Pallas Athena and Chiron in Pisces whilst squaring Saturn and the Galactic Center in Sagittarius – and of course opposing the Moon at 22 Virgo.
Let´s just say that´s going be … a very telling time.
Many questions shall arise, such as: Are we on the road to Healing, or simply Self-Deception? Are we on a path of Service, or simply Self-Aggrandizement? (and so on and so forth)
Less than a month later (April 6, 2017), Saturn will retrograde at that exact degree – 27 Sagittarius (The Galactic Center), forcing us to re-visit these questions. Saturn will re-enter, and then finally leave Sagittarius from the last week of November till the first week of December 2017.
So really … the seeds we´re setting now, at the very least (putting aside the fact this is an Eclipse for a moment), will find structure, consolidation and form in fifteen months from now!!!!
I also note two curious features shared by the current Virgo New Moon (September 1, 2016) and next year´s Virgo Full Moon (March 12, 2017):
(1) The Sun and Moon square Saturn in Sagittarius
(2) Pluto in Capricorn opposes Vesta in Cancer (owing to Vesta´s long retrograde from the start of Leo and back into Cancer).
So let´s break that down.
The focus on Saturn tells us that – ALL – of this comes back to the question of what Path we ultimately take towards healing, learning, expression, service – or simply the paradigms we use to navigate our lives and find a sense of place in the world.
There´s going to be a lot of physical and/or intellectual movement as we expand our horizons. Be it by travel, migration, higher education, training, speaking – or finding sources of knowledge you see as authoritative in other forms.
Without surprise, this will equally translate into consolidation and/or conflict across the lines of political, spiritual and religious ideology.
As an astrologer, I also see this as a powerful time for the creation (and necessary destruction) of different approaches to this field of human-and-celestial understanding. The same message comes through strongly through the various other hats I wear: as academic, public speaker, global traveller – my own Saturn is in Sagittarius anyway 🙂 .
But long story short …
December 2017 is going to be a definitive time for the planet. And the seeds and energetic path-working we bring to our lives right now – is going to fuel whatever direction emerges then.
So … find the road you want to take and commit to it. You might change it over the next fifteen months – and that is fine. Just pick something, and get to it.
You might want to hold off signing paperwork till early October, just to allow Mercury to finish retrograding – unless of course, it´s just following through with something you previously committed to.
And it´s probably a good idea to let the Pisces Lunar Eclipse on September 16, 2016 pass first. The Moon (24 Pisces) will be conjunct Chiron, the Wounded Healer (22 Pisces), both trining Vesta (20 Cancer).
Amazingly, Vesta will be at the same degree (20 Cancer) during the Pisces Lunar Eclipse (September 16, 2016) and the Virgo Full Moon (March 12, 2017) – and when the Vesta Retrograde ends on March 7, 2017!
Interesting times … .. and such a focus on Vesta, The Priestess – to whom we now turn.
The second shared feature between the Virgo New Moon and Virgo Full Moon is the Pluto-Vesta opposition in Capricorn-Cancer.
This tells me that what we choose now is vital in helping us understand our Path of Service, Facilitation, Priest/essing – and its relationship with familial, ancestral, shadow-based karma, alchemy, manifestation and the deepest levels of energy-working.
That´s putting a very long story in a nutshell.
Vesta, the Priestess is going to want to sacrifice herself for her family, belief system, culture, custom, tradition – or simply to feel that she belongs someplace, that she has a Home.
Pluto will challenge Her by bringing her back into the Shadow-Domains, perhaps through the pursuit of power, perhaps through pain, perhaps both. I see The Priestess needs to understand the truth of what she seeks, what she is willing to sacrifice for it, and why – without giving into Pluto´s seductive wares and/or bullying ways. Remember – this is the planet that rules violence and breakdown, just as it does intimacy and rebirth.
Navigating this alignment alone will require an level of incredible transparency, groundedness and a willingness to ´cut through the karmic BS´ (as a loved one put it). You might prefer the language of transmutation, release and/or acceptance – it comes down to the paradigm of your choice.
Whatever you choose now, let it be a choice born of love, rather the fear of abandonment, betrayal, persecution or the desire to find brute power over another. It can be easy to give into those parts of the self when one believes they have no other way out. But that too is a belief, and one that can be shifted should you choose.
This bodes to be a very very transformative time for energy-workers and facilitators, particularly those who are not averse to exploring the relationship with the Shadow in its various forms. Those of you who do ancestral work will probably already be focusing on inherited (or mimicked) energetic vulnerabilities that have passed through family lineages.
I have found that working with the Golden Ray at the Solar Plexus Chakra in particular to be very, very effective at this time. Gemstones such as citrine or golden topaz will be of great use. Watch as well the messages that (literally) come from your gut, humanity´s ´second brain´, bringing with it the information of 100 million neurons. Probiotics and Vitamin C are also things I would encourage exploring to complement energetic work at this time.
But back to the astrology ….
I have also noted another curious emphasis on Vesta in a different Eclipse – the one coming right up on September 16, 2016. At that time, Vesta will be at 20 Cancer. She will be at that exact degree (as well) on the day the Vesta Retrograde ends (March 7, 2017) and the Virgo Full Moon (March 12, 2017) – when Vesta will oppose Pluto (just as she is doing now, albeit at 15 Cancer-Capricorn).
I would suggest looking into this particular degree (20 Cancer) in your natal and/or progressed charts to see what transformations arise. Vesta finally moves past this degree in the final week of March 2017 – which is when I would expect to see further movement in the way we navigate the Vesta/Cancer-Pluto/Capricorn opposition. The final Vesta-Pluto opposition in Cancer-Capricorn will take place in late July 2020, at 23 degrees. Then we get into the Leo-Aquarius oppositions, which is an entirely different kettle of fish.
To me, what this says is that we´re going to be challenged to move past, transform and/or embrace the role of Vesta-as-familial-caregiver-custodian, sacrificing her power and freedom and limiting herself into the home or domestic sphere. For some, this is ideal – for others, it is a prison. But there are too many ways that particular dynamic can play out – this is just one example. The possibility of resolution here comes in the Shadow (Pluto), in being willing to face what remains unseen in the deepest energetic chambers of the ancestral line. Certainly an interesting time for Priest/esses and Facilitators in general.
As a Priestess – I have to say that this has been one of the most … incredibly intense times of my life.
(I figure that will resonate with many others in a similar vocation).
To sum up what we´ve said so far … what you do during this Eclipse – counts – big time. The ripples you make in the pools of your sub-conscious will transform into ocean tides that move and shape (and dissolve and re-create) us all.
And last but not least – remember – this is an Eclipse. And eclipses come as part of families of eclipses, most popularly classified in terms of Saros cycles. To quote NASA:
“The periodicity and recurrence of eclipses is governed by the Saros cycle, a period of approximately 6,585.3 days (18 years 11 days 8 hours). It was known to the Chaldeans as a period when lunar eclipses seem to repeat themselves, but the cycle is applicable to solar eclipses as well. “ ~eclipse.gsfc.nasa.gov/SEsaros/SEsaros.html
The current Solar Eclipse / New Moon in Virgo is No. 39 of 71 in Saros cycle 135. It began on July 5 1331 and will end on August 17, 2593. Eclipse No. 38 was on August 22, 1998, with No. 40 on September 12, 2034.
Look back to August 1998 to see how the events of then connect with the present (that´s been true to a ridiculously specific degree for me – AND – Vesta was at 20 Cancer on that date as well… you just can´t make this stuff up ). And, if you remember, look back on today if you´re still about in September 2034 😀 There will be considerable energetic linkages between all these dates (which you can find on Wikipedia).
And that is where I would like to leave this article. Rather than going into Saturn-Neptune-Nodes and their relationship with the Sun/Moon/Eclipse – I wanted to take this in a different direction – as we´ve all spent the past months moving through these exact challenges (in the mutable signs).
I felt it was time to take a step forwards and look to the future we wish to create in the time that we have NOW.
With the Rise of the Feminine, so many of us across the Globe have instinctively sought out and begun to honor the Suppressed, Forgotten, Dark Feminine. Be She Kali, Lilith, Hecate, Dhumavati or by any other name, Her Darkness is one that any and all on this Path instantly recognize.
As I have written on multiple occasions, there is equally a trend of appropriating, watering-down and commercializing ancient spiritual traditions, rendering translations that (at times) are a far echo of what was once a powerful being or deity.
To some extent, that has happened with the Dark Goddess. In the bid to make her far more accessible to seekers, so much of what makes her Dark is forgotten or simply glossed over.
And that is .. when you really get down to it .. Not the brightest idea …
This is an energetic signature that has been suppressed, vilified, projected upon and held captive in the words, rituals and imaginations of thousands of years of patriarchal rule. Parts of it hearken back to a time before Time, a space I call the Void from which all Creation emerged. Parts of this Darkness are unspeakably, immeasurably healing and rejuvenating.
And parts of it are downright dangerous, psychotic, chaotic and out of control. This last part is the bit which I´m going to talk about today.
Some of you might find my words as a shocker, others might be be tempted to turn it back on me (i.e. project on me instead), others might wonder if I´ve finally gone off my rocker. That is your judgement to make, should you feel the need. I cannot eschew my duties in any case.
I should also add that many of you who are now just beginning your Path with Her may find Her to be the very opposite. This article is more so for those who have crossed a certain threshold in their relationship with Her and are venturing into a very different terrain. It is more likely to speak to intermediate and advanced channellers and practitioners who invoke her Energy directly.
This is not the same as being a Devotee of Her, or looking to her for Strength and Inspiration. It is a very, very, different relationship and level of engagement.
This is an article that has been months in the making with insights that have been verified by multiple practitioners of a truly advanced level whose judgement I find sound.
I have excluded all other known potential variables before putting forth my hypothesis:
That Parts of the Dark Goddess are Broken in Savage, Damaging ways. And it is up to us to Heal this Darkness. That Working with The Dark Goddess´ energy fully requires us to be present to All of These Aspects.
A few months ago, especially when I facilitated my ´Into the Void: A Journey to the Dark Goddess´ workshop in Glastonbury – I was initiated into certain energetic techniques that I have not read of or heard of elsewhere. I am in the process of writing down these transmissions that come directly from Her, straight from Source – in her Dark Form – I should say a Formless Darkness to be exact.
These teachings have the capacity to heal across timelines in a more complete form that accesses the body at a level I have no words for.
The workshop itself was attended by shamankas who had decades of experience in the field, and the facilitations were very very well received. The downloads were instants the keys I was given opened me to realms I did not consider possible. It was a gift. And most certainly a surprise.
And through that process I have seen many Shades of Darkness. Some are electric blue, some are fiery red. Some have no colour, only a taste or a texture. Some that bring me to a tearful state of reverence, and others that bring me to absolute repulsion.
Darkness is not Homogeneous. She is not Homogeneous. And we cannot Nail Her into Archetypes that Serve our Interests.
Well, not when you´re on an all-out Priestess path. At some point, you feel the rub.
Yes, She can be All-Loving, but that´s not All She is. There is a part of Her that is equally All-Hating.
With the astrological activations of Eris and Uranus, I have seen these multiple Shades of Darkness intensify, with the more bloodthirsty and destructive variant finding more ground.
Imagine having been let out of a cage after been held hostage and raped and abused for thousands of years. I´d be in a bad mood, wouldn´t you?
And I´m not just talking about the righteous avenger of Justice, the Holy Flame of Passion, I´m talking about the kind of energy that enjoys Discord. That enjoys pushing to the edge to see if you will jump.
That throws down the Golden Apple to watch them dance, and ultimately murder themselves. That brings you to the brink of desperation at which point your only choice is to surrender and to do what She bids you to.
(I know, this sounds a lot like the way the ancient Greeks and Romans understood Eris – but dammit, I´m starting to see where their fears come from. It ain´t pretty)
Before we discuss this further, I want to explain that I have taken the time to rule out other factors, in collaboration with professionals in these respective fields : –
A Mental Breakdown – Unclear Sight / Ungrounded Presence – Hijacking / Entities speaking on the Same Channel – Implants – Past-Life Karma – Rips in the Energy Field – ´The Shadow´/ Unacknowledged Self – Projection Dynamics – Disassociated Personality – Possession – and so on …
Having the same experience validated and verified by other long-time practitioners and Priestesses has given me the courage and necessary push to speak about this aspect of Her. I had to be sure that I wasn´t just picking up on something personal and projecting it onto a Divine construct. This is the hardest article I have ever had to write and I thank the sisters – and my brother – who proof-read the draft.
Again – those who directly embody and channel the energy of the Dark Goddess relate to her very differently from those who worship her as a devotee or write about her in admiration, who see her from afar.
For when you look at her Eye-to-Eye, you begin to see these Multiple Faces. Multiple Shadows.
To the many who have sought her out for healing from brokenness and victimhood – I know what I´m saying is a tough pill to swallow.
She is your Saviour, the One who brought you out of bondage. And now – could She be asking you to enter into another?
The thought is too painful to fully consider, but I must. For that is how I began with her myself – that was the first chapter of my Journey with her.
In past times, this is also why access to the Dark Goddesses was traditionally mediated by one who had crossed those thresholds and who help you navigate your way through.
To see if you were ready to truly pass through the eye of the Needle and into a different dimension of Consciousness. Things don´t make the sense the way we expect them to. To be able to tell the difference between your baggage – and – what appears to be baggage of a Cosmic Origin.
In this age, everyone is connecting with everything, irrespective of levels of readiness. We want Enlightenment NOW! And – especially – when it comes to an energy like this one .. that is absolutely not the right approach. It´s one of the reasons why working with the Dark Mothers has, in past times, come with a tonne of warning labels.
Well, like it or not, we´re all going to have face Her. Especially with the Eris-Uranus conjunctions of 2016 and 2017.
So, back to what I´d like to share with you today. The aspects of Darkness that are .. possibly not Sacred as we would like them to be … This is different from the righteous energy of the avenger, the bringer of justice. Or the benevolent, nurturing mother. Or the faceless, formless Void of Creation.
This is just batshit crazy.
I have witnessed this energy move through me, and those closest to me. And have heard of the same story or dynamic with other practitioners. And they are the same story.
Sometimes when you channel or embody Her energy, you see Her Pain. Her Shadow. And that is far larger than any one individual or story. The level and intensity of hate, rage and anger far exceeds your own. It is not even the pain of a single soul through multiple lifetimes, but of a pain that millions, if not billions have borne.
And sometimes it is Anger. It is the desire to Burn. Burn the world that held Her down against Her will.
It is a far larger than one individual´s pain. It is immense.
The images we receive are very similar as is the feel or nature of the energy which I am doing my best to describe. Something about it feels edgy, intoxicated with power – but off, so very, very off. It is the Rising Feminine, but it´s not what we expected.
And I´ve seen it move through so many people that I now can put a finger it and identify it. Not to blame or shame. But to heal.
There are these moments when you feel as though you have no control. That your usual ways of communing with Spirit are quite literally leading you off a cliff. They can be utterly selfish, utterly destructive, utterly ghastly. And still come through the same channel as so many other beautiful, uplifting messages from the Dark Mother emanate.
A very different experience from your personal shadow-work, from possession, or all that fun stuff… this moves through you like Lightning that has stood in wait for thousands of Years and whose anger can no longer be denied.
There´s no Ego-hold to it. It just moves through you like a Wave you feel you can´t stop. Because it is so … huge.
Until I reached out and found other sisters struggling with the same, I was about to throw in the towel. I had run out of explanations beyond the idea I was on the wrong Path and had taken a weird turn, now in thoroughly bizarre territory.
How was this even possible?
How could the Mother I love so much be expressing such violent, destructive-for-its-own-sake energy?
Could the Greeks have been right with their fear of Eris?
Was I internalizing patriarchal propaganda or finding an inner demoness I needed to exorcise?
Was I losing my own sanity?
Was my Ego-Shadow-Baggage that HUGE?
So many questions ..
But after much searching, verifying and discerning …
What I can understand now is that this is part of a far, far, larger thing. Something that goes beyond me as a person, as a daughter of a particular maternal line, a member of an ethnicity or race, and so on.
It´s something that each and every practitioner-channeller of The Dark Mother will face the farther they go in Her Service.
That with the Rise of the Feminine .. ALL parts of Her are waking up.
That includes the Avenger, the Protector, the Mother – but equally –
Part of her is Screaming. A part of her wants to Kill. A part of her Relishes the Bloodshed.
Imagining Her not to have these features is … to deny so much of what She is and has been through.
And that is what has happened… with the watering-down of this archetype so as to make her more accessible. In much the same way the Feminine is pedestalized to the point where she is not capable of any Evil.
And to pretend that this side of Her comes out only in response to injustice is well-meaning, but ultimately incomplete.
Different people have responded differently to this energy. Some have run for the hills. Others have embodied it and have allowed their personal baggage to be conflated with Her Shadow. Her Past. The energy they feel from Her is so powerful that it makes them feel powerful. And they attack, in Her name. And they glorify it.
There is another group who sees this as a test of initiation. Surrender to her without question and She will save you. You can call it a lack of faith on my path, but there are some things I will never do – no matter who or what asks me to, or whatever larger cause there may be. The ends do not justify the means.
Those who are working with Her purely from the Lower Chakras aren´t able to see the difference between these shades- because it looks so very similar. You need the upper and the lower working in tandem to tell the two apart.
How do you tell the difference between one fighting for justice, and one fighting just because She likes the chaos? When you´re in a stage where you´re just finding your feet, your voice and your power – this is the last thing you want to think about.
I am writing about this because (1) that´s how I process, (2) there´s bound to be other people who are dealing with this exact question-
What do you do when your Dark Goddess tells you to do the energetic equivalent of drinking poison, of mating with a monster? Or of putting an innocent in harm´s way? Or opening a door you know you shouldn´t?
(Those with Atlantean connections / past-life memories – you know exactly what I´m talking about)
What do you do when the one you trusted and loved so deeply asks you to commit an act you cannot? And every fiber in your body tells you not to?
My only response would be to find a different kind of Darkness to Heal whom you Love so very very deeply. In this case, a Priestess to a Goddess. And many others will be doing the same.
With the astrology of Eris and Uranus, I suspect this work is going to be far more significant than any of us ever imagined. Already I see many who believe they´re on the Path being utterly controlled by this variant of Darkness. And those who can tell the difference between the two are shying away from it. Some refuse to acknowledge it at all (which does not help).
It´s an ancient energy. And one that carries the scars of what we collectively did to the Goddess in the first place. When you bring back The Feminine — it´s ALL of Her. Not just the lovey-dovey, rosey, or even the avenging-for-justice bits. There is lunacy, there is hysteria, there is aggression and there is malice. There is the victim that wants to be heard and the victim-turned-bully that wants to enjoy what it once endured.
Let us be honest. If we accept that the Male God has a Shadow of Brutality and War, then why do we leave the Female exempt? I for one do not buy the woman-is-by-virtue-of-her-sex-more-sacred-argument. In our need to see Goddess as Saviour, we exclude her Shadow. Just look to the holy texts of monotheistic faith – a lot of Gods have a side that is utterly, unspeakably Cruel.
And if we look to the history/herstory of The Dark Goddess herself, her cults have not necessarily been of a peaceful kind. The priests of Cybele and her consort Attis, for instance, engaged in Self-Castration and self-whipping. An impersonator of the Aztec Earth-Mother Goddess Coatlicue was ritually sacrificed in an annual festival. Practices of human sacrifice and .. shall we say unethical magic.. have been associated with the Goddess Kali.
The list goes on. She is a whole lot more than your sister-power-girlfriend who backs you up when you need to stand Tall. There are many other facets of Her than the watered-down, New Age interpretation we´re being asked to consume.
When we bring back these Older Goddesses and their practices, we also bring back the energies associated with them. And not all of them are of Love. So when we invoke these names, we are invoking far more than our current ideas of what The Dark Goddess is what We Want Her to Be. Such is the power of ritual.
Which is why … truly walking the Path of the Dark Goddess is not something I would recommend for most people. You see every possible Shade of Light, Dark, Rainbow, Inverted Energy there is – and you are challenged to find what is Sacred within it , or what must be done to make it Sacred Once more.
Sometimes Serving the Goddess means .. ya really got to Serve Her… with a Dose of Perspective.
To me, a Goddess is not some uber-deity that watches over us. She is born of the intersections of multiple realities, fractals of a hologram that together – bring us the Illusion / Reality of One who is far greater than All. At least, that´s the way I see Her. Which may be right or wrong, but it´s only way that works for me.
When I heal myself, I heal my Goddess. I heal every woman, man, child, being I am connected with. And vice versa. When I harm myself, I make the same choice.
It´s possible – using the body analogy – that whatever this vibration is is the equivalent of bile or regurgitation. That it´s an image of the pain and distortion that women (in particular) and their Sacred, Dark traditions have undergone. Or, it´s just a part of Her we need to address.
Whichever it is, I am sure this piece will challenge and alienate many. But I hope it will find its way to many others who work with, who honor the Sacred Dark Mother for All She Is, not merely All that We Need Her To Be.
In other words, just as we have a Shadow, so does She. And when you channel Her or embody that energy directly, that Shadow comes out as well. It´s tempting to say it´s the individual self projected, or other such psychological shenanigans – but here is where I am grateful for the validation that other channellers have also experienced. It is a part of Her energy in itself. Telling the difference between these various shades of Darkness, between your personal Shadow – and Hers – is a task in itself. That´s why this path has not always been that accessible.
The question of how to heal or address this Shadow is a huge one. And I´m going to have to go back the transmissions I received earlier in the year. As I suspect my answer has been there all along.
It´s going to take Love of all Shades. Especially from the Darkest of Spaces.
It´s a beautiful night in Chennai, Tamil Nadu. The Moon is nearly full and her glow brightens the night sky. I´ve just had dinner and am walking down a market street. There´s a sense of freedom and safety that I feel in South India. You certainly see a lot more women walking about by themselves than you do in the North, without the sense that you constantly need to look over your shoulder.
Something in my feet stirs and I feel a familiar pulse of energy in the land, calling strongly to me. I turn to my companion and ask him if there´s a temple about. Like a beacon, I feel Her calling to me, her temple pulsing through the soles of my feet.
And I find Her through my feet. Literally. Walking down Eldams Road, we turn into a small alleyway to find a 24-hour clinic. A few days ago I developed some blisters on my feet from walking around in my sneakers without socks on. There are little wounds that haven´t healed very well and are beginning to smell a little.
The doctor turns out to be a bright, curious and highly competent young Muslim woman, dressed in a fully-covered black burqa. She was curious about what I did as I explained I´d been travelling. I replied that I went to sacred places and wrote articles on women and spirituality and she smiled. It was a nice feeling to meet a lovely being able to exude that kind of intelligence, warmth and curiosity, breaking through several stereotypes in the process.
I take my leave and then turn towards the temple. I know I´m exactly where I need to be.
The temple itself is a very small, narrow, one-chamber building. There´s a black, seated statue of a Goddess with an uncharacteristic face. She doesn´t look peaceful, but not exactly war-like either. This of course is the Goddess Draupadi.
In the Mahabharata, Princess Draupadi emerges as a beautiful dark-skinned being from a sacred fire ceremony, conducted by her father King Drupada. She is also known as Krishnaa (female variant of The Dark One – contrary to the way she is commonly depicted in art and film) and is said to possess great powers, much like Lord Krishna himself. Unlike any other figure I know of in Hindu mythology, Draupadi is wedded to five brothers, the princes of the Pandava clan (protagonists of the Mahabharata). She is, in that sense, polyandrous.
Through an act of deceit (and godawful misogyny), Draupadi is staked as part of a claim in a game of dice staged by her husbands´ enemies (and cousins – the Kauravas). She questions the legality of staking her as a claim (as her husband had already lost himself as part of the bet). Nevertheless, she is dragged out publicly by force into the royal court. Some accounts tell us that she was menstruating at that time. Her enemies call her a prostitute on account of her polyandry and try to publicly strip her. She is saved through Divine Intervention (by Lord Krishna).
My sense is that much of the narrative has already been distorted. Many questions still linger around this powerful, enigmatic figure.
Draupadi, in one account I read, has the power to dissolve her enemies to ash through her gaze alone. Why did she not then do so in her time of need?
In ritual practice and worship, some communities continue to worship Draupadi as a Goddess, most notably (in South India) amongst the Vanniyar and other Shudra (allegedly lower) castes. In the temple I visited, I noticed two statues flanking the main deity – Lord Ganesha and Lord Hanuman (which was to be expected). A further statue sat facing the moolasthanam (central alcove) from a corner.
I asked my companion about this figure after I´d returned back to my room and he informed me that it was Aravaan. There are many narratives that surround this figure – but for the sake of brevity and focus – I´ll stick to a brief overview.
In the Mahabharata, Aravaan was a figure who willingly offered himself as a sacrifice so that the Pandavas would win the mighty war. He was said to be of Serpent (Naga) origin, as the grandson of Adi-Sesha (in some accounts). In the South, the offering of one´s body (self-decapitation) as the sacrifice to a Goddess goes back to antiquity – with goddesses such as Kottravai, Kali and Draupadi.
A different narrative links Aravaan with the Aravaani (transvestite) community. As Aravaan was a bachelor at the time of consenting to be a sacrifice, he yearned for marriage (and the rite of consumnation) before his death. One version cites his marriage to Lord Krishna in his feminine form (Mohini). Krishna-Mohini goes through the rituals associated with widowhood and beats his-her breasts in agony at the death of his-her husband. There are very few temples that honor both Draupadi and Aravaan and who celebrate and ritually enact this event each year through performance of ritual, dance, prayer and sexual activity. Aravaani-s transvestites play a significant role in the festivities.
Wikipedia´s entries on Draupadi and Aravaan are great starting places for further research into these traditions – for those interested.
What is also interesting is that I´d passed by Draupadi-Aravaan temples just yesterday on the train – confined to a very specific space in Tamil Nadu. I felt very moved by the lands I saw, especially as they are where my maternal ancestors come from. I had been thinking about the figure of the transvestite and of the great Serpent. These themes all come together through this temple and the figures therein – not something I would have known consciously beforehand.
Returning to the narrative – as I enter the Draupadi temple, I hear my favourite version of the Mahishasura Mardini Stotram (by the Sulamangalam Sisters) play in the background. I express my gratitude at having been guided there – for myself, and for a friend´s daughter in need – and have a brief discussion with Her on sexual politics and the politics of choice 🙂 .
As I leave, I notice that the priest gave me and my companion some yellow powder, which is wholly separate from what you get at Shaivite or Vaishnavite temples. It wasn´t the grey ash (vibhooti), re (kum kum), sandalwood paste – or anything I´d ever seen before. The temple priest explains that he´s given us turmeric ground with raw rice and 18 herbs, bearing great medicinal and spiritual properties. Very unusual indeed, and very very sacred.
I leave the temple with a sense of fulfilment. She´s asked me to write about the experience, and so here She is 🙂
Image: Draupadi´s presented to a pachisi game.jpg – Public Domain vis Wikimedia Commons (Cropped from original)
As you discover the sacred embrace of Night, you begin to transform your perception of the Universe. It´s like living in a different time-space, or discovering a different type of element, or language through which you interpret and engage with reality.
A very different sort of reality. One which the ancient Goddess traditions encouraged us to journey into. One which we were later told to forget, vilify, and destroy.
And so many have heeded the call of the Sacred Dark in the past 3 years (Saturn in Scorpio, and so on). So many have begun to open their eyes to that different language or paradigm.
And just as the same way Light is romanticized and stylized and distilled into a form that often forgets its essence – I see the same happening with the way we conceptualize and speak of Darkness.
Rather than the space itself – the vessel of the Void – I see many becoming more and more fixated on the Path of Getting There. Which is a natural thing, but it still needs to be discussed.
And for many the path into the shadow is Pain. Gut wrenching, soul crushing, heart-destroying pain. And metaphors of abuse. And somehow we´re supposed to enjoy this. We´re supposed to dig deep and find what part of us likes this process. With many allegories to BDSM thrown into the mix.
Certainly a route to the Darkness, but not the only one. And certainly one that perpetuates that patriarchal narrative of Pluto raping Persephone and dragging her down below against Her will.
Again, one way of Getting there.
But the Goddess has never left the Shadow. She is the Void.
So why would you need to go through that? Unless you were told you had to, and believed in it?
What happens when we identify our greatest depths, highs, lows – the feel and thrill of excitement (not always the happy kind) – with the quality of being alive?
What happens when getting thrashed, surrendering, mastering (?) or simply being with the Shadow – is really how you get off and feel … simply .. feel…. alive?
When the adrenaline of the Descent and the Hero/ine´s War/Embrace of the Dragon/Serpent/Dark becomes synonymous with Life itself?
That then becomes worrisome.
The more we romanticize the pain, the abuse and the trauma that Dark-Working can bring (in some of its conceptualizations, certainly the more common ones), the more we legitimate levels of addiction to certain forms of Darkness and paths of reaching it.
It´s the same story with codependency and the way cultural norms romanticize it. Here the abusive partner is Pluto/Saturn and somehow we´re still expected to take it – to find salvation.
Some story, different container.
An unnecessary repetition. And one that takes away from the vessel itself.
It´s certainly a part of the process, but a Liminal One.
For some people the period lasts a while, and for others it´s a quick dip – in and out.
Either way, as you head for your Descent – watch the highs and lows that come – and know that this deep emotional roller-coaster is a catalyst for your catharsis. Your undoing. Breaking. and Re-making. But that´s all that is. A Catalyst.
It´s the psychodynamic tension that makes that change, whatever alchemical release happen so that transformation can begin. The drama, in and of itself, is not the end-point or outcome of the process. Just a part of it. It helps to bear that distinction in mind.
And when it´s done … some of you will head out of the cave, the matrix of death and creation, and head back on into the sunlight. Others will find something hidden further within. And head towards it.
A black light calls. Burning with the cool fire of ice. A different sort of light and experience.
There we meet the Dark Mother. The Womb. The Primordial Chamber.
And it gets real quiet.
We enter a space of Detachment. A space where all is, has been, will be and never was.
That space, I call home.
But it takes a bit of a dance, a whirl, a tumble and turn to get here. It´s a space that has no name, no label, no time. The Dark Womb comes close, but that too is a human construct.
And sometimes we stay there for a while, or longer.
Just as the silence begins to deafen, as the sheer .. weight … of unformed potential begins to spill over and through the dark abyss, just as you both enjoy and can no longer take the fullness of the Void … without warning …
Image: The University of Utah. This artist’s conception shows what an invisible “dark star” might look like when viewed in infrared light that it emits as heat. The core is enveloped by clouds of hydrogen and helium gas. A new University of Utah study suggests the first stars in the universe did not shine, but may have been dark stars. Fair use policy.
Between now till the end of June 2016, our journey into the Shadow/Underworld/Sub-conscious realms is going to be unusually intense. We will revisit skeletons in the closet not yet unearthed, heal and release parts of ourselves that are wounded (or specific relationships with that sense of wounding), slay – or – befriend your demons and dragons (depends on your paradigm). And energetic work of that ilk. Whether consider it a domain of torture, or of profound rebirth, or alchemy, or all of the above … whatever you do is going to be intense and transformative in an all-or-nothing kind of way. (Hello, Scorpio).
This is due to Mars´ upcoming return / re-entry into Scorpio that so many of us are tuning into nearly 2 days in advance!. We´re feeling it particularly intensely due to two factors:
(1) the current Mars-Venus opposition.
She (Venus) brings Mars´energy back to the body through the vehicle of relationships and brings it firmly to the realm of the mind / headspace for processing (Gemini)
The proximity of the Red Planet to our own probably accounts for why we´re all feeling it so intensely so quickly.
So, back to topic.
Mars first exited Scorpio this year in March 2016. It will re-enter the sign due to its retrograde on 27 May. The Mars Retrograde ends on June 29. Mars will exit Scorpio and re-enter Sagittarius on August 2.
You´re going to be feeling a return to or revisitation of themes from December 2014, June 2015 and September 2015 – Saturn´s exit, re-entry and 2nd exit out of Scorpio. This will be especially pronounced at this time, and again, in early August. Time to act on those life-altering decisions made in previous years (if you haven´t already).
Generally speaking, the Mars-in-Scorpio-Retrograde period (late May – late June) is a good time to to see where you´ve invested your energy and resources and whether merger or withdrawal seems most appropriate. Try not to make major commitments until the start of July at the very least.
Things like karmic entanglements, ancestral work and matters of a less visible ( ´occult´ ) nature may need your attention at this time – look for a qualified practitioner if in doubt. Practices of psychic protection will be of great use (grounding, salt baths, wearing or using black obsidian and selenite) as a general rule.
But bear in mind that this isn´t about going to War in the Shadow. It´s about healing your relationship with Darkness, or that which is dis-acknowledged, hidden or suppressed within the Self. We hold so much of ourselves in this space – the good, the bad, the nameless, the formless, the infinite. Whilst the Descent may seem daunting, remember that the Darkness – or Sacred Shadow – is a place that can equally hold great healing, nurture, regeneration … in a deep, deep, embrace.
You emerged from Darkness. Just ask any fetus, seed, or shooting star.
The Darkness is a place that equally holds great healing, nurture and profound embrace. With Black Moon Lilith, Juno and Isis together at 0-1 Scorpio and the Venus-Mars opposition in the skies now – I would say a fair amount of the work will take us back to the Womb of the Dark Goddess, the Primordial Void.
PS – Bear in mind that Jupiter and Saturn square off on the 26th of May – and that we´re going to experience a lot of dynamic square-offs and eclipses in the Mutable Signs till the end of September. This is part of a much larger picture of adaptation and navigation. See ´Navigating the Mutable Signs – Overview of May-September 2016´ – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-1a7 . Please also note that the current round of astro-consultation sessions I offer lasts till June 23, 2016 – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-1b3
Image: William Blake (1757–1827), illustration to Dante The Divine Comedy, Inferno, Canto I, 1-90, Public Domain
Blessings to All. Today we see the Sun (17 Taurus) trined Pluto Retrograde (17 Capricorn). It´s a powerful day to become more aware of our relationship with power, ideas of legacy, control dramas – and – how they all connect with the way we have built the foundation of our day to day material existences. What a mouthful.
Some of you will find this a powerful day to dig deeper, to go further into the Shadow side of the Self and discover the beauty, the strength, the woundedness and the fragility hidden within. Think of it as an energy that draws out what layers of your own consciousness has spent so much energy trying to keep hidden.
And some people will absolutely freak out with the sheer intensity of it. That depends on where you are in your jouney, and what alignments are triggered by this in your natal or progressed chart.
Probably best to give people a wider berth than usual today and not force anything to come out into the open. Things are going to be erupting forth anyway so, best to let the process take its own course.
What I would suggest – as a general rule – is to observe whatever appears to be emerging from the depths today and to consciously try to connect it with some facet of your more tangible, material life – and to see – if appropriate – what needs recognition, improvement or dramatic transformation. With yesterday´s New Moon in Taurus, we´re still in the 3-day window period for setting the seeds for a new cycle of growth with this Earth sign.
Try to avoid over-intellectualizing the process, and let the lower chakras lead the way with their own wisdom.
Stick close to trees and nature if you can – or experiences that allow you to take pleasure in the world, in a balanced sense.
Pluto´s energies can also bring our our deepest obsessions and most hidden fantasies – it would be a useful tine to see how we play these our in our daily lives and rituals.
Some may also discover how forms of spirituality have become forms of escapism – even if the ego-mind believes the very opposite. That´s a biggie. I feel that´s more connected with the South Node in Pisces, and the ways it asks us to release our attachments to what we consider ´the spiritual´ so that we may (paradoxically) find it anew.
There´s a whole bunch of other exact alignments taking place at the same time. Grand Earth Trine (Pluto, Mercury, Sun, Moon, Jupiter, North Node – it becomes a Kite if you include the South Node), weak T-Square (Jupiter, North/South Node, Saturn, Neptune), and so on and so forth. And a whole bunch of asteroidal alignments as well. I´m just going to list a few in summary :
Sun (17 Taurus) opposite Askalaphus & Ceto (17-18 Scorpio): A time to look a deeper motivations, sub-conscious fears and ancestral karma. Serpentine archetypes are strongly highlighted as is the deep oceanic abyss. Watch for secrets that emerge from the sub-conscious and consider if they are yours to reveal.
Sun (17 Taurus) sextile Thereus (16 Cancer): A time to look at patterns of victim-abuser dynamics and ways we have, over time, overidentified with these patterns – with a focus on the emotional and intuitive legacies handed down through ancestral and familial lines. Those with bodies near 13-20 Sagittarius will experience this as a potent Yod (Finger of Fate) – one that asks you to reconsider your beliefs, the search for truth, travel, higher education, religious views and how they structure your reality. Some journeys, teachers and paradigms will keep you trapped and others will set you free. It´s your call.
Sun (17 Taurus) squared Sila-Nunam (17 Leo): Potential causes for conflict, or creative synergy with siblings (in particular). Fixed viewpoints appear to clash with one another. You may need to draw better boundaries so the movement of energy stays wholesome.
Sun (17 Taurus) square Hybris & Narcissus (17 Aquarius): A time to look at the fixedness of your own ideological identifications and to break through them in the search of a more profound relationship with Truth. Some will burst forth with new ideas, others will hold fast to what they choose to believe in. Work with optical calcite / icelandic spar and black obsidian if you wish. Try to look past the confines of your own perception by seeking out other mirrors. It´s not easy work, but it can be deeply rewarding. Step out of the bubble and explore other, even opposite, perspectives.
Moon (25 Taurus) conjunct Sedna and Vesta. A very significant aspect for those who honor and serve the Earth-Goddess, the Femnine archetype – or who are simply seeking to find the material and emotional basis for their sense of security (or woundedness) in the world. We are granted now a window into our deepest vulnerabilities and the choice to release them, find ways to heal them, or move into further denial of them (what you pick is up to you).
Moon / Sedna / Vesta (25 Taurus) squared Damocles and Eros (24-25 Aquarius): The deeper we process our sense of vulnerability, betrayal and abandonment – the closer we get to a place of (potential) release and healing. This will require a significant ideological shift, particularly in the way sacred intimacy is conceptualized and the responsibility you bear in seeking that sort of connection.
Mercury Retrograde (20 Taurus) trined True Node (20 Virgo): Look back to the final week of April 2016 to see what decisions were made when we had this same alignment before (as Mercury was Direct). It is a time where we re-conceptualize our ideas of service, routine, health, habits – ways we prepare the earthly veseel that ultimately becomes the channel of Spirit. You will see the final Mercury North Node trine in the late May / early June 2016. So we´re not doe with this alignment yet. Siblings and other people / memories from your early childhood may play a powerful catalytic role in discovering new paths to wellness and service at this time.
Mercury Retrograde (20 Taurus) conjunct Persephone & Sphinx (21 Taurus): Examining parent-child dynamics, attachments to the Shadow / Underworld realms and powerful rememberances / initiations into past-lives may be strongly present for some now. Again, try not to force awareness, but allow it to emerge and bloom forth from within.
Generally speaking, when I look at all these aspects (as there is a lot more going on as well) – I see a more general theme that unites them all – the emergence of a new form of consciousness that honors and engages with the material realm. Within some spiritual circles, we see the material discounted as something worthless or sinful, or simply something that must be ´transcended´ to attain greater spiritual merit.
By looking deeper into, or simply engaging more fully with the reality we chose to incarnate into, I feel many of us may find the ´missing pieces of the puzzle´ we try so hard to find.
Answers come strongly through the Earth, the World around you and the Body as this time <3