I’ve had a lot to reflect on since my departure from Facebook and the challenges I’ve been facing in establishing a new community centered on Youtube.
I spent seven years in Facebookland trying to create the same space but ultimately did not succeed. It was a much larger, global audience with 18-hour days online activism and community building for seven years – generating tens of thousands of conversations.
This wasn’t just a business or an individual sharing posts online: it became a very large network bridging a very diverse group of people. With real and meaningful conversations and deep sharing.
It became the focus of my life and existence. The thing that brought me back no matter what other challenges I faced.
And I had to leave it behind.
I can tell you it wasn’t an easy choice.
My primary reason?
I was not truly heard or seen by the people I was trying to help.
I found that people were projecting in me either as teacher, guru, savior – or bully, aggressor, intimidator – or friend, sister, or mother – or advertising board, or resource or something to exploit or use.
I did find some true friends through that and I remain in contact with them. And I can tell you that finding those willing to see you without projection is rare. So rare and precious.
The thing that really finally broke my connection with that platform and the community was
(1) picking on teenagers, especially those who are differently abled (Parkland protests / Greta Thunberg / Quaden Bayles etc. )
(2) white fragility around questions of race and politics
(3) homophobia and transphobia
(4) the willingness to ignore social justice in name of spirituality
(5) the ease with which people ignored basic human compassion in the name of being right
(6) sheer cognitive dissonance that would allow a person to claim transcendence and deep spiritual seeking on the other hand and then oppress a minority / person of marginalized identity without batting an eyelid
In short : my unwillingness to center an understanding of divinity on the basis of gender, sexuality and race devoid of political ramifications led me to break away from a community I invested so much of my energy and time into.
Simply as the truth of their projections and agendas came out the moment I said anything that did not fit into their bubble of the way they wanted to see me.
I can tell you my life and business would be a lot easier and a lot more lucrative if I didn’t talk about these things.
But I’m called to.
Because it’s important.
Honestly, I felt I had failed.
All that time trying to teach people about truth and discernment, spirituality and politics and the need to think and re think and not give into half-truths and indoctrination – And they still didn’t get it.
And it was getting worse.
And I couldn’t help.
It’s easy to pedestalize The Sky Priestess when she’s talking about a sky far far away from your life in the here and now.
And that is Really … Really …. Not what I am about.
Do your due diligence.
Stop projecting on people to be what you need them to be (be it a saviour or a Boogeyman)
And your path will be a lot clearer for it.