A PRIESTESS ON THE PATH OF FORMLESSNESS AS TAUGHT BY THE DARK MOTHER

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Recent weeks have really opened up a whole new chapter in my life and my Understanding of Spirit. I began my journey as a Priestess in the Service of the Dark Mother (which – for new readers – has absolutely nothing to do with Evil). I thought that my role was to speak out for the re-institution of the tradition of the Priestess, and the many discriminatory practices that surround so many faith-based practices and texts. I still see that as my role, but the way I interpret it has changed dramatically.

These changes began in Nepal, when I both died and fell in Love with a sacred site to Lord Shiva I found through pure instinct (with no conscious clues of any description). Something in me could no longer exclusively identify with a Female conception of Divinity as somehow superior to the male. Or to ignore that aspect of Spirit. Lord Shiva has always featured in my life some how, but it was that experience that really cemented the indivisibility between the Masculine, the Feminine and my Path.

Recently, another shift has happened. God and Goddess made sense before – and now they don’t – not in the same way they did before. The balance of dual energies seemed like the pinnacle, and now they just seem like one part of many. Deities, and demigods that seemed to be the end-all, now look as though they are intermediate facilitators – or perhaps partial reflections – of a more Transcendental Energy.

I don’t deny their existence or their value in the spiritual path, only that they occupy a different space in my understanding of the Cosmos than they did before. An in some way, that re-framing makes their Presence even more palpable.

Rather than looking for the Divine ‘out there’, my focus has always been within. Despite my academic background, the direction of my spiritual growth has rarely been through the Mind to the Heart, but from the Womb to the Heart to the Mind – in the spirit of a very feminine process of gnosis. So not so much about the abstract concepts or the words or ideologies, but all of this knowing and re-knowing and learning and un-learning has been prompted by whatever spiritual Curriculum my Soul chose to manifest. And for me the guide or pathway to this understanding has been through the Dark Goddess – particularly in her Crone Aspect.

The more I realize, the less I ‘know’. I hope that makes sense. All of this is felt change, change the body and the womb stir me into re-membering, rather than the rationalizing attempts of a mind. But the more I feel, the more logical it seems. And this whole Rational-Emotional divide seems less and less relevant.

Perhaps I’m at the start of what many are calling 5D evolution? Perhaps my consciousness is beginning to understand what lies beyond dualism? Maybe even a glimpse of Reality behind the Veil?

Who knows. I’m just going with the flow. And not letting me get ahead of myself. There’s too much for me to discover for me to assume that I can authoritatively say ‘This Is It’.

So I’ve been thinking about how to define myself and my path – as it is now, and believe you me – it will evolve — And here are the key components of it so to speak:

(1) Authenticity: If it isn’t you, don’t do it, don’t be it. Just be you.
(2) Vulnerability: If it hides you away from your wounds (healing and transcending is a different process), then something’s up – if it gives you a false sense of superiority, invincibility or security – then something’ s definitely up
(3) Integrity & Honesty (Related to Authenticity, but not quite the same thing – you could be an Authentic Jerk… )
(4) Non-permanence and Formlessness: The Universe is a pretty big place. I doubt Divinity looks Human, if it has a shape at all. With so much going on, and Energy shifting the way it does (call it Spirit) — I would somehow be uncomfortable with an idea of a Stable, Eternal, Absolute Truth for a Universe essentially Dancing in Motion as we speak.
(5) (Seeming) Paradox – To see the Formless through Form. To see Spirit through Matter. To work with Energy within the confines of Matter.
(6) Relentless Questioning – The fact my spiritual path survives my constant questioning is a sign that … I’m probably doing what I need to be doing.

Again, these are ideas to be expanded upon. Not quite my priestess manifesto …
And they will evolve. But they’ve moved on to the point where I can safely say:

That I am a Priestess on the Path of Formlessness, as taught to me by the Dark Mother. I love God as I love Goddess: They are two parts of Many that make up the Whole.

You might ask – why still use the ‘Title’ of Priestess – why make that distinction? Truth be told, someday, we will all realize the Divinity within us – and will need no intermediaries or facilitators. Until that day we will still require a label, title or marker to simply describe what we (facilitators) do.

As we collectively shift, we are unearthing so many divisions and distinctions that have kept so many away from a recognition of their Innate Divinity. (And here’s where Paradox enters…) Like the being who has incarnated to dissolve a karmic seed, and must fully express that desire before it can be released – I feel that we must honor, recognize and allow all Forms of Form to flourish, before we release the need for them in their entirety.

Sadly, the Priestess-hood and the right of Woman to hold any Divine status is still challenged today. And the work that I do serves to bring that Form into full realization once more, before it can all be (ultimately) Dissolved. When that day comes (and if I’m still in the cycle or birth-rebirth) I shall no longer use that title to describe my work as it will no longer be required.

But till then …..

This is Priestess Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com

Some articles of mine which talk about different aspects of this … Path of Formlessness. Others have of course written and spoken about this in different ways. I can, however, only speak for myself.

The Formless Feminine – The Dark Mother Who Led Me To This Path – Dhumavati-Ma: http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/08/dhum-dhum-dhumavati-the-formless-shakti-of-smoke-detachment-priestess-bairavee-balasubramaniam-phd/

The Divine Does not Discriminate: http://wp.me/p4OUNS-7m
A Wake Up Call from My Brain: http://wp.me/p4OUNS-7u
Detachment and the Illusion of Form: http://wp.me/p4OUNS-5S
Dissolution: Maya Un-Masked – http://wp.me/p4OUNS-6G

Image Information: Ashes in the Wind 1996.jpg – By Richard Rappaport (Own work) [CC-BY-SA-3.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0)], via Wikimedia Commons

GRAND WATER TRINE – URANUS PLUTO T SQUARE – PART 1: MERCURY (21-29 JULY 2014)

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Blessings everyone,

There’s been so much going on in the Universe, hasn’t there? Rest assured, we exit this chaotic phase of intense shifting in the first week of August. New challenges and intensities lie ahead – but first we have to shift. Shift jobs, perspectives, homes, life paths, attitudes, shift whatever no longer empowers you and keeps you mired in the past. We have ample tools to facilitate that shifting in the sky right now, some of which I will discuss here.

Over the past few days, a Grand Water Trine involving Saturn, Chiron Retrograde, and (currently) Mercury has been building. A second phase of this energy will emerge as Mercury moves into Leo and Venus comes into position, making a new Grand Trine. I’ll talk about that later in Part 2.

This first Grand Water Trine is present in the sky between 21-29 July 2014 (GMT + 8), and peaks between 24-26 July. It will continue to exert influence for 3 days thereafter, inclusive of the New Moon.

Owing to the position of the planets now, Mercury also makes a powerful T-Square with Uranus and Pluto as it transits through Cancer. Venus will do the same in a few days. I’ll discuss this aspect very briefly at the end of this article, but first, the GWT itself.

Grand Water Trines are aspects which involve three or more bodies linked by trine aspects to one another, all in the same element. This is a Grand _Water_ Trine as it involves Water signs, namely – Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces. Water energies, broadly speaking, are associated with emotions, the intuition, the depths of the psyche and the heights of transcendental spiritual experience. They exist through matter and beyond it.

This Grand Water Trine (the first part) involves Saturn, Chiron Retrograde and Mercury. Let’s have a brief look at what part each body plays:

Saturn in Scorpio – Recently stationed direct, teaches us about the boundaries/limitations/discipline we need to maintain in areas of our lives pertaining to intimacy, sexuality, esoteric understanding, depth psychology, attitudes towards power and control in sign associated with Transformation-induced-by-Crisis.

Chiron Retrograde in Pisces – Chiron retrograde teaches us how to learn from ourselves and heal our pain. The Teacher looks inward to understand the origin and nature of the Wound which we feel so powerfully. In Pisces, this wounding can be through inappropriate boundaries set in relationships, spiritual guru-student hiearchies, or any other context in which you try to merge and ‘lose yourself’ in something or someone. Pisces (and Neptune) are also associated with forms of addiction-facilitated escapism.

Mercury in Cancer – Returning to Cancer after what seemed like an unusually long retrograde period (it just felt that way), Mercury is asking and encouraging us to apply our mental, analytical, interpretive and communicative faculties to understanding the ‘foundations of our psyche’. Perhaps greater insight is needed as to our sub-conscious conditioning, our familial constructs, our collective identities through which we define ourselves. We may also look to tradition and other cultural constructs to find a sense of rootedness or belonging at this time.

So all these energies harmonize with one another, and amplify each other, creating a powerful current of energy we call a Grand Trine. Trines are neither ‘good’ or ‘bad’, they simply mean that energies enhance one another. The way you experience this Trine is hugely dependent upon the way you choose to engage with the energies of each astral body involved.

This intense energetic pathway is raised a notch as Mercury opposes Pluto, turning the Grand Trine into a Kite. What this means is that the energy of the Trine is likely to be focused through the Mercury-Pluto opposition. I have written about that here, for those interested:http://bairaveebalasubramaniam.com/2014/07/24/mercury-pluto-retrograde-opposition/

This opposition also creates a T-Square between Uranus (recently turned) Retrograde, Pluto Retrograde and Mercury. The apex or point of greatest focus will be Uranus Retrograde, which Mercury will square (exact) at 7:57 am, July 25th 2014, GMT + 8:00.

Uranus Retrograde asks you to transform your internal awareness (shift) and embody that change authentically. Pluto Retrograde facilitates a seeming crisis, or eruption within the psyche, particularly to do attitudes towards the status quo, the societal super-structure, the super-ego construct and measures of worldly success and achievement. Mercury in Cancer will question and ponder as to how all of these different impulses to change, transformation and emergence will link to the self’s relation with the collective, the family, the tribe?

For most of the 25th, the Moon will be bridging Mercury and Venus, sitting in between them, and blending their energies – all of which feed into the Grand Trine and the Uranus Pluto Square.

This is a major day as the Sun conjuncts Jupiter at 4:23 am.

Blessings to all,
Bairavee Balasubramaniam, PhD
www.bairaveebalasubramaniam.com